243rd Sitting 29/04/2021

We had another Zoom sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG and sat in the dark séance room.

She did the opening prayer as I tuned in.

I felt myself being controlled and the communication began...

‘Words... words of wisdom, words of encouragement, words of help, words that will help you to understand the true nature of life, all that surrounds you, all that is a part of you and that what you have yet to understand can be brought forward, can be presented to you. Your job is to recognise something in what you are given, recognise something that connects to you, something which will grow within you, for you as a physical being have so much more in your life than what you understand as the physical world, for you are constantly presented with many new ideas, many new ways of looking at life but a part of you holds you to the physical world for it was your choice, your choice to live a physical life, cut off from your true self. The benefit of a physical life is to give you situations that have consequences, give you a structure that you can see and work with in a way that helps you to understand. Nothing is hidden from you but your belief in the physical world shields that what lies beyond. To not believe allows you to let go but you will always return for whilst you live in a physical world that is your base, that is your connection to life while you are living that life, that physical life. And yet you can stretch out and see beyond, you can turn the clock back, you can see the history of your world and you can look forward, you can look into that what has not yet for you happened. You are doing this all the time; it is a natural experience. Only when you learn to quieten your beliefs will you notice, will you understand that information is always available, you can see into the future, you can understand that future and you can see how it helps you in your own life. Try to remember your dreams, try to understand your dreams for they are your connection to future events. When you are awake you are also dreaming. Some situations may feel like they have happened before and as you clear your mind, as you get rid of those beliefs, you will understand the connection with the physical world, the dream reality and that what has yet to happen’

‘There is an understanding that time can stand still and yet your physical world moves forward. Not all time is real time for time was a creation and the minds that created time saw how time can change, how it can be seen in different ways. The physical world has its own time but beyond that time can be seen differently, can be lived differently. The past and the future can become one but only if you let go of that strongly held belief in the physical world’

‘When a new idea comes to your mind remember that that idea has come from somewhere, has been used before, has been explored before. It is not so new and yet for you it is a new step in your learning, something which is helping you. Take note of all that helps, all that you feel helps you throughout your life. You are helping yourself; you are beginning to understand that a physical life is a fragile life’

Liz... ‘Can I ask a question friend?’

‘Yes, you may’

Liz... ‘You say that ideas come from somewhere else but does that... are there original ideas? As a human, can we create ideation, can we create ideas?’

‘As a human being in a physical world you are creating something that has been created before. You as a physical being are seeing it for the first time but you are tapping into ideas that have already been created’

Liz... ‘When an artist or a creative person produces something that is hailed as original and created, what does that mean then?’

‘It is original to the physical world. Beyond the physical is a reflection of that image, that picture. You are connected to all ideas, all thoughts and as a physical being you can be fed information that you will perceive as your own ideas’

Liz... ‘Can human beings become creators; can they create. For example, at the moment elementary technology is new, inventions, simple things that have never been seen before’

‘The physical human being does have the ability to create but what is creation? What is happening when something new comes to your mind. Does it come from yourself or does it come from beyond yourself? How do you know where that what you see in your mind, that what sparks in your mind, how do you know where it originates and whether it has existed before? There are many realities all working at the same time, side by side, all full of conscious beings. You as consciousness are connected to all of consciousness. Your life in the physical world is merely one experiment. You are here to grow, you are here to discover, you are here to use all of your abilities’

Liz... ‘When you speak of experiments there’s an element of unknown outcome and with the notion of free will there is again a notion of an unknown outcome to the evolutionary process of human beings given free will, so that’s why I'm wondering in the ability to create, whether there is an element of something unknown coming in, a wild card factor that can actually innovate, can create something that hasn’t been seen before, something novel. It may not be substantially different from other things but unique, something that hasn’t been seen before, that’s what I'm wondering when you talk of everything coming from somewhere else, that ideas for example all come from somewhere else. But it seems with the possibility of free will that there may be original ideation which leads to original creation’

‘You are interpreting an idea in your own unique way. You have received information and in receiving that information you are moulding that information into something which is unique to you’

Liz... ‘Ah, that makes sense’

‘In that way you are creating for yourself, and you can present that creation to others and they too will interpret it in their own way. The spark that generated that thought exists in all of consciousness, you have merely reached out and touched that spark, and that has set off in your mind a series of thoughts which have moulded that original thought into something new and you have taken that out, you have displayed it, you have placed it on the canvas of a painting or produced a series of words, poetic words, words of fiction, you have created something which will benefit your world for others will see this, it will help them too, and they also will reach out to the spark of consciousness and find their own ideas presented to then which they can also develop and turn into something new. In that sense there are always new ideas being created from one spark of life, of consciousness that you are all a part of’

Liz... ‘I understand’

‘Creation is an on-going process and you are all a part of that process. Rejoice that you are becoming something new each day of your life, as you change yourself. You are in effect creating yourself each day of your life by the choices that you make and the love that you give to others and that what you receive. Thank you, thank you my dear friend. We enjoyed your questions for they help in raising the vibration within these rooms and when the vibration increases, your connection with that spark is brighter, is stronger. Please continue with your own experiments and we will see and speak with you next time that we meet, thank you’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Liz then tuned in...

‘Nick, a strange sensation as I tuned in, a gentleman with a very stiff white collar, almost clerical but not quite and he’s morphed into Francis, like Elizabethan with lace collar and a dark suit, somebody who’s come before, a very erudite person, I feel he wants to say he’s travelled round the whole globe and seen everything, he has the whole globe in his hand. He's giving me the sense he’s in the time of Henry VIII. I'm sensing because we were talking about ideas, this is a man of ideas and he’s interested in debate and ideas but he’s a pragmatist, that’s why he’s got the globe there. It's to do with the roundness the rotundity so I think he was part of that controversy to do with the Earth being round and not flat because he travelled right the way round it, he didn’t fall off’

‘Just get the name Boyle, I think he was connected with the rules of chemistry. This man has a scientific bent of mind, Boyle’s laws of gasses. And Coulon, he’s bringing in all these people to do with energy conversion, the idea of transmutation of substances, different states of matter, states of energetic vibration, changes of state. Energy is conserved but you have a finite amount of energy but it can’t be lost. That was the idea. Modern physics and astronomy has suggested that the universe is expanding and there’s some sense that even that idea is wrong, but stuff can be created, it isn’t a finite amount, endless creation. The new physics is leaning towards a change in those ideas. He wants to wave a magic wand, this is all magic, ideas are all magic, the whole thing is magic. There's an element to it we don’t understand, a trick, a conjurer, God the conjurer creating an illusion. We try to understand how the trick is done. There's an element of choice, we choose to see things a certain way that’s convenient for us, for our purposes, to help us to survive, to help us to live comfortably. But I'm getting a churning up feeling that creation isn’t comfortable, it’s not a comfortable process, it involves a churning up. Everything we’ve thought, everything we believed will be turned upside down, inside out, Jesus said that’

‘In order to grow, we have to break the mould, we have to emerged from our safe space, from our chrysalis, from our womb, from those safe spaces that hold us secure, comfortable, intact. In order to expand creation is a tumultuous purpose but after the storm comes peace, comes a stable equilibrium, and as you say that equilibrium, life is fragile, based on a knife edge because creation is a chaotic process as the mathematicians well know. Metastability, the smallest instigation, generation, stirring, something new, can rock the boat and then there’s that juddering increases and with resonance with more and more of these thoughts, these deviant ideas, these new generation of thinking. As it increases, as it gains momentum the juddering increases, increases, increases until suddenly whoosh, that calm peaceful picture, that serene and accepted version of reality, whoosh, breaks up, disintegrates. And this is felt by human beings when this happens, the shaking up of beliefs, internal turmoil, mental anguish, mental suffering. It is at this point that the grace of the one, the magician, can penetrate to those who are open, who call out in their anguish for help in understanding, in finding equilibrium, finding peace, in understanding the truth. Those who sincerely seek the truth will call out the magician, the great conjurer responds in kind, makes his presence felt, and when we see through the eyes of the conjurer, the great magician, the universal spirit, God, the original force, when we see through his eyes, through the eyes of that sublime being, being itself, we find a reality, a truth, a point of equilibrium, it is the crux of all creation, it is beyond all creation, the wellspring, the fount, the source of the spring life hidden in the deep ground of being. And it is an act of faith. Religions often call on those that believe and follow, to trust there is an axiom; that the magician, the conjurer hears and is there for each one of us. To be able to identify, to see through the eyes of the conjurer, the I am, the infinite, I am the source, to identify with, therein lies restoration of sanity, peace and understanding, the ability to ride the crests and the troughs, this creative process that is evolution, that is evolution and devolution because they go in hand in hand, side by side. The bubbles that have been blown by the great conjurer coalesce and burst. The great pageant that is creation in all its turmoil, with its suffering, with its joys, with its peaks and troughs will vanish in an eyeblink' 

'The world is not what we think, the world thinks us, we are the world. This conundrum, the duality in unity is deep at the heart of creation with our divided brain it is difficult for us to conceive of this, we have to go beyond conception to experience being, joining with. The divided being uses conceptual thinking to join up the conceptions, to hold together the divided reality that is seen and experienced by the divided being but when we see through the eyes of the conjurer, the creator, the great magician, we see unity, we see one, we see undivided, we see absolute, we see as we are seen. Let go of your thinking, let go of your ideas, let go of your conceptions, your imaginings, see with the eyes of God, see with the eyes of the one. Way to this is necessary in this time, in the times that are coming, the times of turmoil. The times of the new heaven and the new Earth are approaching fast. Be aware of your role in all of this. We must teach our children to look at the sun, to see with the light of the sun, of the one, the source'

'I'm asking did I get your message right Francis? He’s holding a candle, a small candle, a small light in this great sailing boat, seven seas, sailing the seven seas. He's put into my mind a black Siamese cat'

'Just got the image in my mind of a golden dagger, golden knife'

'Just got the name Robert'

'Getting a sense of greyhound racing. I'm asking for some evidence that you will recognise' 

Me... ‘Greyhound racing connects to somebody I know’

‘It’s coupled with a ticket, I'm seeing a top hat with a ticket in it, don’t know if it’s a winning ticket or just a ticket, travel ticket. It’s taking me to a lord mayor or some dignitary, somebody opening some function, May Day, seems to be a man. Stuck with the sense of a hot air balloon, thinking of throwing out the ballast and it goes free. It does need a flame to ignite it. I'm just wondering if Travis is around'

Me... ‘Yes that’s what I was thinking’

‘Just took me to Daisy and a didgeridoo, to do with Australia. Just asking Travis if there’s something that Daisy is doing at the moment that we could check on and he put the idea of a birthday cake in my mind, I got candles, I think it’s connected with the family, not sure if it’s one of her daughters. Something connected with a garage, a car in the garage, I'm seeing just the chassis of a car, the wheels, not even a whole car. I saw the words Flower Power, an old hippy idea. Someone's taking me to barrels of beer or wine making, wine making kits connected with the garage. Getting the name Henry, and John Henry. I think he’s just mucking around. Now he’s put in my mind Muffin the Mule. I'm just asking Travis who’s he with? And I immediately got Colin Fry and he said Dolly, Dolly Parton but I don’t know if she’s alive or dead? Maybe he was just joking? Another name Vera. He’s giving me a rosette, red, white and blue, made out of ribbon, like what somebody wins in a gymkhana. He's showing me that as a winning thing because I've got him right. I’m just thanking him for being with us and he’s saying he’s always around, he’s making me feel the old school tie thing, black and white tie. Perhaps he’s meaning we’re all part of the same school, the same group? That’s nice to know Travis. He’s singing Daisy, Daisy give me your answer do... he’s just sending his love to Daisy and of course to us too. He's giving me the sense of a snaky path, a winding path, I guess that’s life. He's holding up a book, feels like a Beano, one of those old comic books, annuals, something funny. He's letting us know a little bit of comic, lightness won’t do us any harm, take it all with a pinch of salt and have a bit of fun, bit of a laugh, childish fun, a few chuckles does you a world of good. I know we’re a bit on the serious side and I know you were less on the serious side Travis, you enjoyed a bit of fun and that’s good, I understand that, God bless you, thank you, make your presence felt again, bring us some evidence that we can confirm, that really helps and I will contact Daisy. Something’s got bent, I sense it’s a piece of metal or a pipe. I don’t know if she’s referring to the chassis in the garage?’

Liz thanked everyone for coming and I did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...

There are some good bits of evidence here. Liz got Greyhound Racing which connects to Travis. Liz couldn't remember his connection to greyhound racing when I questioned her after the sitting but she would have seen a picture of him with greyhounds in his funeral service leaflet a few years ago. Then she got ‘sense of a hot air balloon, thinking of throwing out the ballast and it goes free’ This is a good connection to Joan, the Mercury Circle medium. Joan had a thing about the song ‘Up, up and away in my beautiful balloon’ and liked to have it played when we sat as she felt it helped her get into a trance state. Then Liz got ‘Colin Fry and he said Dolly’ Dolly was one of Colin’s main guides and part of the Diamond Group. He was a very funny female impersonator on the Earth and brought that character through in the séances. Liz didn’t know about him and she interpreted it as Dolly Parton. At the end when Liz said she would contact Daisy she said ‘something’s got bent, I sense it’s a piece of metal or a pipe’ this is evidential as Daisy has been doing spoon bending. Daisy did mention this in an email to Liz and me a few years ago but when I told Liz about this after our sitting, she didn’t recall it. It will be interesting to see if any of the other bits of information Liz got can be confirmed by Daisy when she contacts her.

We've just got a reply from Daisy who tells us she has a didgeridoo hanging on her wall. This was the first thing Liz got in connection with Daisy so another bit of evidence.

242nd Sitting 08/04/2021

We had a zoom sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG and sat in her séance room with the light off.

She did the opening prayer as I tuned in and was soon controlled...

‘The clock ticks, the days go by, each day brings new opportunities, new horizons to which you turn your attention for you are living a life in a timeless world but your clocks tell you, you clocks give you something on which to measure your life, to gauge your life in the physical for you need structure, you need routine, you need familiar pastimes, you need that what you have built up for yourself, a pattern that you fit in with and into. You look back at the past and you remember some of what you have experienced but other times you do not remember for each experience brings with it a level of understanding and when that level is heightened it becomes a part of you, it becomes a memory. Day to day things come and go but when a memory is created it becomes a living object, something that connects to you, something which brings you into focus to your true self, that self that is constantly evolving and each memory is a step on the pathway to what you have become. It is always beneficial to look back at your memories. Sometimes they will be presented to you as you live your life, you will be reminded and these reminders help you to continue to have new experiences which will add to your growth’

‘You look at the clock on the wall and you see the time; that is understandable to you. But there is another clock within yourself, a clock that not only gives you the time but also records, records events and stores those events, events that are important to you, important to your growth, events that have helped you and they can still help you in your memories, for your memories help you make choices, help you to decide, and it is your choices that are important. They come from within, they are automatic, you do not stop and think for you are living a continuous life, situations are coming to you and you do not have time to think. And as you change yourself so the choices will change, the automatic choices, because they are you, they are what you have become and in the future you will become more, you will change and those automatic choices will also change with you’ 

‘Each choice you make creates a new reality for yourself. A positive choice will bring a truer reality to your mind whereas negative choices will cloud your reality, they will restrict your reality and they will restrict future choices’

‘The structure of your world was created for all who inhabit your world, each of you working as an individual rely on that structure to live your life but you are all living in a different way. You have all built up different levels of understanding and in doing that you are also creating for yourself your own reality. Even though you live together, mingle with each other, work with one another, you see it through your own eyes, you perceive it in your own way. All life in your world plays its part in the growth and development of consciousness, of each other. Understand one another as being different, as having their own point of view in each situation. Try not to judge their choices using your point of view for what they see is different, and what they see will change in the same way that you will change, but together as one human race you all complement one another for you give richness to life in your differences and that is the beauty of the physical world. Nothing stays the same, there is always new situations waiting to make themselves felt on each and every one of you. It does not matter at what stage you have reached in the quality of your consciousness; what matters is your willingness to change’

‘Thank you, thank you my dear friend, please continue with your wonderful experiments. We will re-join you in your next session, thank you’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Liz then tuned in...

‘It’s strange, I’ve got... first of all I got this sense of a great bear, somebody covered in a bear skin, an image but a comfortable image. Then I got an old rabbi, I don’t know that he was old, dressed in a black and white shawl with tefillin or things on his forehead. And he keeps coming back and he gives me a feeling that there was a way back connection with your family’

Me... ‘I don’t know about that?'

‘Or perhaps that’s where we are both connected? but I’m not sure why he is there. This is very much connected with rights and rituals. The fence around the law and keeping the commandments, keeping in mind all the spiritual laws, how they relate to society, but this is something that I've... when I saw a little girl connected with this rabbi, it may be connected with my childhood. The sense of the girl child is a suggestion that connected on the female side of your family. I’m seeing him unrolling a scroll, the letter of the law and it brings... are you someone who is with the letter of the law or the spirit of the law and is there a difference. Sensing the little girl feels there is a difference, the little child is the spirit of the law. The old man with the shawl and the phylacteries tied to his forehead and his wrists is the letter of the law, bound by rules and regulations and time. This was the fight that Jesus had with the Pharisees and the Sadducees when he said except you become as a little child, you shall in no way enter the kingdom of heaven. And the big brown bear, the bear skin is that creature of fears, that embodiment with the wild, a rather tame wild, the animal and all those laws and the written texts and the edicts and the urge to conformity was to supress the beast within, the wild animal, to domesticate, to make comfortable, to keep within bounds, to wear that animal as a comfortable coat. We clothed our spirit in the garment with the animal kingdom, with the bull, the taurus, with the animus. The hunter became the hunted, we consumed the flesh of wild beasts and we became like beasts. We sacrificed the beasts and we consumed them so we would adopt their characteristics. We likened ourselves to the beasts, we worshiped the beasts. Nature, bred in tooth and claw and the man became no different, killing, persecuting, tearing to pieces his foes. Creating golden image of a wrathful god who will destroy, will annihilate his foes. Lost touch with the spirit child within, clothing that child in a garment of straps and fetters and phylacteries and bear skins. Losing touch with our true nature we turned our heaven into hell. What we have many times created is the hell on earth and not the heaven on earth. We corrupted the animals; we corrupted the Earth. It is not enough to have one day of the year as a day of atonement, every day of the year should be a day of atonement, a day of recognition of our travesty of the life we have been given, of the light within, of our persecution of our own spiritual nature. Every day should be the day of reckoning, the day we recognise how we have erred from our true nature, how we have ceased to honour the spirit within, how we have imprisoned, enslaved, persecuted our own spirit in the interests of conformity. The sins of the fathers have followed the generations and now is the time of reckoning, the time for transformation, the time for atonement, the time to make good the promise that was in the beginning, there should be no half measures, there is no half heart, there is only the whole heart. The man that overturned the tables in the temple came to right the law of love into the heart of man, came to circumcise the heart. He says there shall be no half measures in the kingdom of god and these are the words, thou shalt love the lord thy god with all thy heart and with all thy soul and with all thy might and thy neighbour as thyself. And these words which I command thee this day shall be upon thy heart, thy whole heart and there shall be no half measures. Those who walk in my steps will follow my path, give 100% of themselves, no half measures’ 

‘I'm seeing the goats and the lambs and there will be a separation and there will be a sifting of souls. The Earth has called out for a reckoning and a refurbishment, spring cleaning on the Earth. The collective mind has become cancered, the surgeon's knife must excise the cancerous growth, the collective mind needs healing. There is one field for goats and there is one field for my lambs and in my field of lambs the lion will lie down, but in my field of goats where they frolic and play havoc, they will go their way, they will disappear in the mountains. They will be recycled and reformed. The wild places that they crave’

‘I think I’ve got somebody called Dorothy, Dorothy Kerin’

‘Feels like I’m surrounded by a circle of the elders. I think they are just saying that we’re heading towards the flames of Pentecost, a very Christian theme, after the resurrection when the disciples received the holy spirit and the power of healing directly. It's a direct transmission and it’s got converted into the cabalistic pathway. Just giving me the feeling that there’s a very strong impetus into the Earth at present, this is a pivotal turning point, a shaking up of the old order all over the world and that we must be prepared. It's making me feel it’s like the announcement of the second coming, the re-entry into the Earth plane, of the power, the Christos, the sun power to reclaim and make good. I’m getting a feeling of a snow, white noise, a white out, a high-level interference, high power interference, a re-boot, re-booting the fallacy taking place, it’s going to be a testing time. I see a returning to Mary, the mother, the mother goddess, for mercy, the miracles associated with Mary. As if many will be drawn to the shrines of Mary for healing because of the poisonous rain. This is where the turning of men’s hearts to the spirit will be so important, the preparation is now, I see the tongues of fire. I’m going to say thank you, this is a painful vision, the necessary purging. I understand we need to be more connected, to feel more presence with us in this time which is imminent, the times of sorrow, thank you, thank you, God bless you. Make your presences felt through us and through all who are working in this way, more powerful now needed. Thank you friends’

Liz found it difficult to come back, she said she felt like a skewer and it had been more like a trance control. 

Liz knew Dorothy Kerin who had founded a healing sanctuary called Burrswood in 1948. She had received a miraculous healing from Jesus as a child.

I then did the healing exercise, thanked our spirit friends and did our closing down exercise...

241st Sitting 01/04/2021

We had a Zoom sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG and was sitting in the séance room with the lights off.

Liz did the opening prayer as I tuned in.

I was soon controlled and the communication began...

‘Love is always present in each situation. There is always the element of love present in that situation however fearful you may feel, however distressed you may feel, you are always connected to that love and that love is what binds you to your true self, binds you to all of life for you are life, you are living a life within a life, a life in a physical world cut off from the true life that is you. Realise this and you will become you, you will become all of you, you will become all of life, you will live all of life. There is nothing hidden from you, there is nothing stopping you from exploring, from experimenting, from trying new things, new ways of understanding, new ways of looking at things, at situations, at life. As life moves on you feel you are following, you feel there is something guiding you but you also feel it is you making those decisions, you guiding yourself but within you there is that driving force, that force that understands you, that force that knows you and that force that puts you in situations that will benefit your growth, that will give you the opportunities to grow. You have already created tools, tools to use in your life, in your day-to-day exchanges of information with one another and with that what surrounds you in your physical world. Those tools have been crafted by your experiences, experiences that have created knowledge, but beyond those tools there is that inner feeling that recognises the true you, the true connection with all things. You may be alone but you are also a part of something greater’

‘You all share your lives with one another in a physical world and at the same time your physical world is sharing its life with all of life. Your reflection is greater than yourself, you are a small part but an important part in the growth of all of life, all of consciousness and as you play your part you add to that growth. You are not restricted to life in a physical world, only you believe that you are restricted, that you are a part of a physical world. Let go of that belief and spread your wings, become a part of that what surrounds you and resides inside of you, a greater understanding, a truer knowledge, a part of you that wants to break free, a yearning for freedom, a yearning for knowledge, a yearning for understanding. Allow yourself to reach out, allow yourself to expand your awareness in every situation. See the love in that situation, that is the true meaning of the situation that you find yourself in, the situation itself is irrelevant. You are here to learn about love, you are here to use your own love by helping one another, by caring for one another, by caring for your world, your environment. Find peace within yourself, create harmony with those who you live with, who you react with. Do not allow troubled minds to affect you, see them for what they are, understand that they are on their own pathway and they too are creating something beautiful, a physical world where love is king and peace is the foundation on which that love is built, thank you, thank my dear friend, please continue with your interesting experiments’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Liz then tuned in...

‘I’m feeling straight away I've got a lady here and I'm sure it’s your mother’s mother, your grandmother, I'm seeing her face. Whether I'm remembering it from a photograph but I know it’s her. I'm asking her why she’s come so definitely, so whether there’s an anniversary connected with that, that’s my mind thinking that, wondering. It is the first day of spring. But she’s feeling very happy, I'm feeling her. The word rejoicing comes to mind, she’s reminding me of little lambs, frisking. She's put an image of a boat, a sailing boat into my mind, and in reflecting on this she’s... and this may be my mind interpreting why she’s showing me that, there may have been something that you saw on the reservoir yesterday. No, I think it’s her image for setting sail, she’s started to travel, setting sail on the sea of spirit. She's giving me the sense of that greenhouse, which was like a focal point, it’s like she’s... I'm sensing she’s not afraid to move on, she’s not afraid anymore, she’s feeling confident, she’s blossoming from that love, all the love you were talking about, she’s feeling that. She's making me think of rings on fingers so whether it’s an anniversary thing? She’s taking me back to sheep and I’ve just got the nursery rhyme, Baa Baa Black Sheep. It's that feeling that the black sheep is the special one, the one that defies the normal rules, and the little boy down the lane gets some of the wool. And I’m sensing that she’s feeling that you’re very special because of what you’re doing’

‘She’s taking me back to the greenhouse again, I'm just feeling lettuces and things growing, just this sense of lovely warmth and sunshine’

This is quite interesting as I was thinking about what I remember about my mum’s mum and I thought of something she would always say when serving up lettuce, she called it ‘let us’ and would often say ‘let us pray’ as a joke. Then just after thinking about that Liz was taken back to the greenhouse and saw lettuces.

‘She’s saying things like I don’t mind dancing in the rain now, just get that feeling that things that were adverse to her, it’s now sort of equalled out, she’s feeling much more at peace. She's saying there’s a sense of completion’ 

‘Just popped a name into my head, Annie. She’s giving me the sense Annie was a little girl, I'm just seeing a doll’

My mum had a good friend called Ann. She knew her for as long as I can remember but I don’t know for sure if she knew her as a little girl. 

‘She’s just given me a sense of an army truck, looks like a Jeep. When my mind’s going back, I don’t know whether in the war she was connected with the land army or something but it’s a sort of... I'm sensing it’s connected with a happy memory for her, a sense of freedom. I keep getting what your dad would say, mop head, Mrs Mop Head, but I don’t know if he referred to his mother-in-law, your gran as Mrs Mop Head. I don’t know why she’s bringing that in or whether it’s something your dad said but it’s a sort of friendly thing for her, I'm certainly feeling her white hair. She's giving me another nursery rhyme now, Rings on her fingers and bells on her toes, she shall have music wherever she goes... I’m also getting a feeling of a dog around, a rather shaggy dog, looks a bit like a sheep. I think she’s telling me this is the little big dog, it’s a pale coloured dog. Now I'm just getting tram lines, I don’t know if that’s a metaphor for crossed wires. Now I'm getting another old song, Daisy, Daisy give me your answer do, I'm half-crazy all for the love of you... something about a marriage, can’t afford a carriage, a bicycle made for two... she’s giving me several references to what feel like it must be a wedding anniversary, whether it’s hers or someone else in the family. She's making me feel, it’s like she’s saying we were very happy, saying I was happy as you can be with circumstances and all that. There was a lot of love but I became Mrs Pinafore, wearing the apron’

I didn’t know at the time but I’ve just found out my mum and dad were married April 2nd one day after this sitting. Liz mentioned anniversaries twice in the first paragraph and here gets a nursery rhyme and old song which suggest weddings and several references to wedding anniversaries. Liz afterwards said she felt my mum was there as well and Mrs Mop Head suggests my dad was also there which would make sense. I can't place the shaggy dog unless it's my dad's interest in shaggy dog stories.

‘Now she’s giving me the sense of a tennis racket, she played tennis at some point. She’s giving me the feeling of a girl's school but I get the feeling she would have liked to have been more educated, continued education'

This ties up with my mum; I have a picture of her with a tennis racket taken in the early 50s when she first met my dad. She went to Bexhill Grammar School which back then was split up into a girl's school and boy's school.

'There’s that Jeep there, war Jeep, army Jeep, that was all good experience, like fields of cabbages and things. She's put in my mind salt and pepper, and for some reason chips. She’s taking me with headscarves to the Queen, the Queen as a young woman, around about coronation time, that sort of era, the Queen’s waving from a car, seeing little union jack flags flying. I feel she was very much part of that and she felt it was a good secure time, it was like stability, you knew where you were, your place in the world. Despite all the changes all the things happening around there was that element of having your place, knowing your place and that felt very important, important to her but it’s like that’s an era that’s gone and she now can see herself separate from that it’s like looking back at it, feeling there are larger vistas now, more to explore. It's like taking the best of all of that. It's just a lovely image of sailing this yacht with white sails. She's just given me a sense of pearl earrings, single pearl, clip-on earrings. Just asking her what she wants to say to you and I'm just feeling she wants you to have her lovely memories of the good old times and there was a lot of love in those good old times. I'm not sure what was with the pearl earrings but it was like she was putting them on her ears, I don’t know if it was something that got passed on in the family but they might have been real pearl and valuable but it’s like that’s not the things that are of value, it is the love in the memories, she’s saying that’s our treasure, that’s what we treasure and that helps us to sail, to go forth, the things, the lovely heirlooms are not really important, they are things, we think at the time that they have value but the real value is the warmth of those memories, the times when we feel truly happy, we have that sense of love of wellbeing. For her stability was very important, the sense of knowing your place, hierarchy. So those were values that were important at the time, gave her a sense of well-being. Maybe not for everyone. I sense she liked the establishment; she’s making me feel that she was a royalist’

Not sure about the army Jeep. Salt and pepper have come up before with my mum’s mum which I connect to a person she used to do dinners for who always covered it in salt and pepper which upset her after she had cooked up something tasty. I think she was a royalist. I have an old book about the royal family which I think I got from her. I doubt she would have had pearl earrings as she didn’t have a lot of money.

‘She’s just popped a name Roger into my head. I'm just sensing it’s like Roger over and out. I'm going to say thank you to her, thank you grandma for your lovely presence, I'm glad you are happy and ready to branch out, enjoy that sense of freedom now. Lots of love to you, thank you for making your presence felt, God bless you’

I then did the healing prayer, thanked everyone for coming and did our closing down exercise...

240th Sitting 25/03/2021

We had a Zoom sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

Liz did the opening prayer as I tuned in.

I felt myself being controlled and the communication began...

‘All change is good; all change is beneficial. The physical world is a place in which to change yourself and in changing yourself you are changing your world. You develop within yourself a need for change but at the same time a part of you wishes to remain in familiar surroundings. Try to resist that wanting to remain in those familiar surroundings and allow yourself to change, for changing is a natural process and a part of evolution. You have nothing to fear, for by changing you become something new, something that hasn’t existed before. You have created a new personality, a new footprint in your journey of life. By changing you allow yourself to see situations in a new way, from a new perspective and it will add to your knowledge, add to your experience, add to the picture that you create for yourself. All change is for the better; let nothing stop you changing. You all came to this world to change, to become something more, to add to the growth of all of life, all of consciousness and to do that you need to change, you need to develop new skills, new understandings. New ideas will bubble up in your thoughts, do not reject those ideas for they have been created by you, for you’

‘Life is an adventure, life is to be explored, use all your powers within you to make it the most beneficial journey for you and for others. For you share your life with others and they react to you, they will see the changes in you and you also notice the changes in them. You all work together, you all change together and your world changes with you. Nothing can stop change except for your fears, your fear of change. Don't become rooted in familiarity for there is so much more to discover. At times you may feel boredom come over you, the feeling of boredom. This is a signal for you to change, this is a signal for you to try something new. You can always go back but to go back you must first take that step forwards and others will follow. There is nothing difficult in this, there is nothing to fear in this, it is a simple evolution process. Look around you at your world, see evolution taking place, see change taking place. The physical world is a world of change and the life that creates it changes with it. Each step on your journey is a new opportunity for change. Hold your head up high, be positive in your thoughts and see the opportunities for change each day of your life. That what resides inside of you is what is pushing you to change, it is the real you and the more you become familiar with the real you, the more you will change, the more you will want to change, thank you, thank you my dear friend, please continue with your experiments, please continue with your thoughts of love for others, you are creating a wonderful atmosphere and that atmosphere follows you through life. Thank you’ 

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Liz then tuned in...

‘I’ve got a gentleman with me Nick, he’s got quite a round pale face, either he’s got very short white hair or he’s bald. I thought at first it was your dad. I'm seeing him now with spectacles, he feels quite old, older than us, maybe in his late 70s, 80s or even early 90s. I'm feeling him as reading a book and eating toast at the same time. I think this is actually your dad, he’s giving me the sense of a keyboard and I always associate that with him. He's definitely family. He's giving me that sense of Sooty and Sweep the dog, like a glove puppet. He's feeling very relaxed, like he’s sitting in a kitchen chair, a wooden chair, medium high back, wooden with slats across it, at the kitchen table with a table cloth on it, eating toast and reading a book. There are letters on the table, post, he hasn’t opened it. He's taking me to the image of peas in a pod which makes me think of family. But it wasn’t two peas in a pod, that sense of we’re all swimming in the same sea, seeds, little kernels held in this safe container. It's to do with germinating. He's taking me on a journey like Crocodile Dundee, crocodile or alligator suddenly coming into view, connected with the TV. Something out of a wild life movie. Getting the sense he’s with you and around you in the house, just enjoying being present, it gives him a sense again of how it was. You were talking a lot about change and I think he’s feeling there is a lot of change, everything's all change in this new way of being which is why its lovely to come back to ground base, to earth as it were. Back to those gentle connections that tie in with the memories of what it was to feel in the physical world. It’s not that he’s not happy or adapting because he feels very centred and content as if he’s become quite peaceful in a sense of benign. Feeling he wants to fill lots of glasses with clean water. He's giving me Wendy and Peter Pan. Rummaging around the old garage. Someone looking for clothes pegs. He’s brought my attention back to tooth paste. I was getting drawn into Wendy and Peter Pan and the father being made to sleep in the dog kennel. He’s saying we’ve all moved on and it’s really quite funny. She’s quite a princess, don’t know who he’s referring to? I think he’s referring to Sarah? I'm getting the sense that he loves you both and he’s seeing you as Peter Pan and Wendy. He’s showing me loads of chrysanthemums, banks of chrysanthemums. Just seeing the dry tubers, you have to put them out now. Two a penny or tuppence ha'penny. It's like watching old films like having a cine camera or a projector watching old films but I can see the film is like an old film with the perforations at the edges, some of it is black and white and some of it is colour. He's brought in the idea of Mrs Mophead again Mrs Mop which keeps appearing with him. Now he’s showing me a car like a black Daimler, that’s a name that comes into my mind, not a taxi but a large bulbus car. Saying something like she goes like a bomb. Wooden panels in the car. Getting a sense of pipe smoke. I think I may have somebody else here, maybe his father. He’s giving me a sense of a mosaic or a jig-saw puzzle, it feels like tiling, I almost feel I want to place it at the bottom of a pond or swimming pool, that takes me to the willow patterned tea services’

At first I thought this was one of my dad’s brothers but there’s also bits that tie up with my dad, some of which have come though before. There’s also some stuff that I can’t place at all. 

Afterwards Liz said she was aware that there was more than one person but she couldn't differentiate or separate them and said this was a skill she still needs to learn. She felt the other person was smaller which if it was who I thought it was is correct. 

‘I've just got that owl again, the owl eyes, connected with that needle point on his wall, intricate needle point. I think he must be visiting a house he shared with Brenda and it’s still on the wall. I think maybe he wanted you to have it, no not if it’s still on the wall. He’s giving me a sense of a hose pipe, don’t know if Brenda’s been doing something outside? It's like somebody’s washing the patio or something, I can see a bucket’ 

The cross-stitch owl has come through before, last time I saw it in the house it was leaning against the wall but not attached to it. My brother and I are going to tidy up the garden soon. This may be what was coming through with the hose pipe.

‘Making me feel of an old-fashioned gramophone, radiogram in the room’

Can’t place this. 

‘I'm feeling this is his house he is in. I think he just wants to send Brenda his love, he’s showing me a pink letter with an envelope, like a love letter envelope, I think that’s just his symbol for a message of love of her and he’s in her house. I'm seeing a tortoiseshell cat or the tail is mottled. Did they have a tortoiseshell cat?’

Me... ‘They did have a cat but not that colour’

‘Has Brenda still got a cat?’

Me... ‘No it’s passed away now’

‘I wonder if it’s a cat that visits the garden? I feel I'm walking with him round this garden, there’s a little bit of a gate and a low fence and bushes, greenery but not a high fence or wall. Not a very big garden, but I'm feeling some rounded steps, like a patio, grey slabs, concrete around the house. My feeling as he’s walking around the garden is it’s a bit patchy, I can feel a bit of privet hedge but it’s low, not much coming up at the moment, there’s bear patches in it. He thinks it needs Sarah’s touch’

It is a small garden with a low wall but no rounded grey steps, slabs or concrete. I don’t think there’s a privet hedge but there are fir trees along the bottom of the garden forming a hedge which is a bit patchy. 

‘He’s showing me cartons of milk and groats and things, he’s concerned that Brenda’s not eating, he’s wanting to build her up. I don’t know what’s with groats, but that was the word, groats and milk. And a teaspoon of malt’

Yes, Brenda is not eating much at the moment. 

‘He wants to do some spring cleaning. I’m sensing a piece of furniture that looks like brown mahogany, quite shiny, I thought at first it was a piano but it’s a cabinet of some sort, it’s like he wants to go around and dust and polish everything. I’m feeling he’s putting bluebells in a small vase, a silver pot. He's giving me wooden coat hangers, taking me to a wardrobe and a feeling of the wardrobe being empty. Got a sense of mothballs, he’s saying where’s my slippers’ 

As well as the garden my brother and I are planning to clean through the whole house. There is an old wooden display cabinet with glass doors that’s been in the house for as long as I can remember. Brenda has given all dad’s clothes to charities and probably his slippers as well.

‘I’m asking if he gets nostalgic but he says I'm just dipping in and out, okay really, just get that sense of nostalgia, things have changed, not quite the same but concern is still there and a sense of love and still belonging. He's saying I haven’t actually gone anywhere and I'm very content and he gives me Michael rowed the boat ashore, that song, Michael row the boat ashore’

Me... ‘Hallelujah...’

‘Yes hallelujah, ha, ha... bless you Michael, thank you very much and it’s lovely that you’re around and noting the subtle changes, you would like Nick to have your needle point, that seems to be important, those owl eyes, yes it’s the wisdom, and the mosaic, the connection of many little points, many little pieces into one living thing, we’re all of many parts, many pieces and that was a creation and the eyes followed you, God bless you, all our love to you, thank you for making your presence felt, thank you for allowing me to experience your memories’

I then did the healing exercise, thanked everyone for coming and did our closing down exercise...

239th Sitting 18/03/2021

We had a Zoom meetup.

This week Liz was sitting in the séance room with the lights off and was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

Liz did the opening prayer as I started to tune in.

I was soon controlled and the communication began...

‘What is real evidence, what is it that really makes you believe. You live your life governed by beliefs and yet when you look for spiritual truths it is your beliefs that hold you back. If you were to let yourself go, take your mind out of physical life, give yourself a chance to experience a new beginning, a new life, a life that encompasses so much more, then you would truly begin to understand that evidence isn’t necessary to convince you, to convince you that you are consciousness. You are receiving information each day of your life and it is you who interprets that information. The physical world does not exist and yet your beliefs tell you it does. You haven’t the experience to take those beliefs out of your mind but within you there is a knowing that tells you there is so much more. You are being shown a small portion of life, part of life that is designed to test your abilities, to test your strengths and your weaknesses. A part of life designed to help you grow, to bring you more into tune with your true self, that what understands all. You are a fragment of something so much bigger but you are not separated from that larger self, that knowing self. You have been taken into a world suited for you, created by you each day as your mind develops, as your experience grows. You paint your own picture each day and you live your life in that picture not knowing that a greater picture exists within yourself. There is so much more to life but you as a personality must live your life in the physical world until you have understood all that is available to you. There is so much for you in your world, you have everything you need at this point in time but a time will come when you will understand so much more, you will not rely on your beliefs to guide you through life, you will only see the truth, you will only see a bigger picture’

‘Much has been written in your physical world throughout the years by those who have experienced the larger picture, the larger reality but they have had to explain what they have experienced with words when really it was merely feelings. See beyond the words, feel reality, feel life, feel living, understand your feelings and do not confuse them with beliefs. Trust your feelings for that is your truth and no beliefs can shield you from your own truth for it is you, it is what you have achieved up to this point and it is a glimpse into what you will achieve in the future, for you are all working towards a future existence, a future experience and you know that and that knowledge is what drives you forward. You cannot make mistakes for that what drives you is strong. What you see as mistakes are misunderstood beliefs. They are merely temporary, the real you is permanent, it is growing like every other human being in your physical world’

‘Rejoice that your world is evolving with you each day of your life. You play your part in that world, there is that love within yourself and you spread happiness, harmony and understandings throughout your world. Nothing negative can penetrate that love. Understand that and your life will change, your world will change and the picture you paint each day of your life will have more meaning, more sharpness, more colour, more love, thank you. Thank you my dear friend, it is always a pleasure to speak in these situations and we will continue to bring forward what we feel will benefit you in your search for complete understanding. Enjoy the journey, enjoy the opportunity and keep smiling, thank you’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend, that was lovely’

Liz then tuned in...

‘Just got this really large man with me now with gingery hair, he feels a little bit like your garage colleague but I feel he drives a lorry, he’s sharing with me his experience as a lorry driver, this large vehicle and he’s at the wheel. Just a sense of great friendliness he brings with him, sandy hair. Feeling of a large, slightly cumbersome body and sandwiches. The feeling he’s giving me is he just wants you to know he’s on the road again. It's as if he’s looking through a clear windscreen. He’s giving me the impression of a little panda, like the sort of thing you put on a windscreen, black and white bear. I have a connection with fondness, expressing his fondness for you. He's giving me the impression he felt like an overgrown chubby schoolboy a lot of the time. Giving me the name Richard. When I asked him who Richard is he gave me the sense of a godfather. I'm getting another name Dillis, Dillis being a secretary’ 

This sounds like the man I used to work with who has come through before. Not sure about the panda or Richard. Dillis may have been a secretary at the garage but I can’t remember for sure.

‘I'm seeing sandals like those old Start-Rite sandals that people wore in the summer, that children wore, leather sandals with straps. That's making me feel I have somebody else here, I think it’s your dad. The Start-Rite sandals he used to buy, that you and your brother had. I'm seeing an eggcup with a painted egg in it, Easter egg type thing. I'm seeing the silver paper being torn off the egg as if that was a rather precious time, he enjoyed the whole thing of Easter eggs, or you enjoyed them, he’s bringing that to my attention, go on treat yourself. Then it’s the connection with the egg and spoon race, and sack races that kind of stuff’ 

Yes my brother and I wore sandals when we were young, I have the pictures to prove it. I think my dad had a trick with an egg cup and painted egg but I can’t be 100% sure.

‘That’s shifted, he’s now taking me to something that looks like pipes, something he’s making, a metal frame, a bit like a Zimmer frame, something he’s putting in a bathroom, feels a bit like a cage. Don't know if he’s giving me the sense that he had a Zimmer frame or something like that’

This is interesting. When dad was in a wheelchair, he wouldn’t use the foot rests when being pushed around the house and his feet kept getting caught under the chair. I bought a piece of wood with caster wheels on it and a man who did jobs around the house made a metal frame out of heating pipes like a Zimmer that attached to the wood so dad could put his feet on it and hold onto the frame when being pushed and he liked that.

‘He’s giving me a, it’s a bit like a trilby hat, or a Robin Hood type hat with a little feather in it’

I had just been watching a programme on TV with my wife and had commented on a bowler hat with a feather on it that someone was wearing.

‘Now he’s taking me into a green garden space, hedges around it, it feels like the grass needs mowing, lush grass and I can feel daffodils and plants’

When we started sitting, I saw the gardener for next door had just arrived with his lawn mower and I was worried he would start mowing the front lawn which would make a loud noise and yes it does have hedges, daffodils and plants around it. Luckily, he went round the back instead.

‘Just getting the name Tabitha, could be the name for a tabby cat. I'm seeing upturned flower pots, reminding me of the Flower Pot Men, weed, Bill and Ben’

I used to watch Bill and Ben the flowerpot men on the TV and Tabitha is a character in Bewitched which I also watched.

‘He's just taking me into a little lobby by the back door with coats hanging, old macs. I've come out of the garden and he's just taking me along memory lane. A bath, an old-fashioned bath, I see the taps on it, there’s an attached shower head like one of those rubber things on the taps. There’s a toilet in the bathroom, the other side of the bath and there’s a window, not frosted glass but a dimpled window that you can’t see through. Outside there’s a little bit of a court yard, just a bit of concrete, that window is backing onto a bit of concrete’

This could be a good description of my dad’s parent’s house but my memory isn’t good enough to know the details for sure. It also sounds like my bungalow except for the bath which isn’t old-fashioned and it’s a front door that leads into a porch with coats hanging.

‘Now he’s taking me to rabbits, I don’t know if there’s a live rabbit around or it’s to do with his tricks. Got a feeling he’s stroking it, it’s a grey rabbit, or is it a grey cat he’s calling a rabbit, he’s stroking something. I’m seeing a cage, an animal in a cage. Would he have kept mice in a cage?’

Me... ‘He didn’t but I had something similar myself’

‘I feel it’s a cage with an animal in it, an animal you can take out and stroke. He's giving me the feeling it was grey although he was showing me a white rabbit before but that might have been my imagination’

I used to keep gerbils in a cage when I was young. Dad never used live rabbits in his tricks but we did have a grey wild rabbit in our garden for a while a few years back.

‘Now he’s going to toffees, he seems to like toffees, I'm sure he’s brought me toffee apples before, someone’s bought him toffees. That takes me to banana splits but I think that’s because someone mentioned them yesterday. I see toffees wrapped in foil, individually wrapped. There was maybe a jar of them, reward toffees, I think he used them as treats or rewards’

Dad used to like toffees and we usually had tins of Quality Street in the house.

‘Now I'm getting crocuses and hyacinths. He's showing me all the lovely things associated with Easter time, makes me feel that was quite a favourite time of his, it’s important now’ 

‘He's taking me to a butcher’s boy bike, a bike somebody uses when they’re delivering things, a basket on the front, a delivery bike, old fashioned bike, it’s like seeing that Clive Dunn again in stripy clothes, it’s connecting back to leaning against a greenhouse or a wall’

‘Got a name Betty and sundew’

Not sure about this.

‘I think I must be with your grandfather now because he’s giving me tunnels, that’s your dad’s father. Sundew seems to be connected to him’

Me... ‘I think that’s melons isn’t it?’

‘He’s giving me a spider or spider’s web, it feels your granddad is connecting me with Halloween, witches hats and all that sort of stuff, imaginative palaver to do with occult, the slightly scary dark side but fun, wizardry, stars and glitter. Just said something funny like off cabbages and kings. He makes me feel that he would have been a mage if he could have done, your dad became the magician, did the magic but your granddad had that propensity. He's giving me that sense of the wizard with the gnarled stick, like a hazel rod but all gnarled. You wouldn’t have known that to look at him, he looked a very sensible man but a little bit quirky, there was a deeper side to him, I get that quiet quizzical nature’

Yes, granddad was very interested in magic and that’s where dad got his interest from. Granddad built some of dad’s tricks back in the 40s including a head guillotine which I now have at home.

‘I get a dog lead and I feel it’s hanging up in the garage, a metal chain, old fashioned dog lead’

Gran and granddad always had dogs.

‘The car, it’s making me feel he had the interest in old fashioned cars, doing them up’

I wouldn’t say he was interested in cars but they had an old Ford Popular which he serviced himself and it had lots of grease nipples underneath which granddad would grease regularly using his pit he had dug out in the garage. 

‘He's just going back to his newspaper, seeing him sitting behind a newspaper, he’s being king of the castle, an Englishman’s home is his castle. I don’t know if it’s him or your dad because I'm getting a pipe and I know there was a picture of him smoking a pipe so I think your dad is there too, they’re both there. Sorry I’m switching from one to the other I think, I'm feeling we’re all good friends on that side and this side, it’s like knights of the round table. And I'm getting those figurines from the fantasy roll playing games, like the wizards, I don’t know if you know what I mean the fantasy roll playing games...’

Me... 'Not really no, not heard of that’

‘Little figures like wizards and mages, you get the same things with war play, soldiers, just imaginative games’

‘They’re just telling me they’ve got loads in store for us, a lot of goodie bags but there’s no hurry because it’ll all keep, it’s like in an enormous fridge behind him, in cold storage. There's no hurry, just enjoy the garden, enjoy pottering, it’s all there and when we are ready, we’ll have a feast’

‘He’s taking me to the tunnels again, there’s something important about the tunnels. It's a dark place to go into but it’s safe. You can allow yourself to just melt and merge and you know that nothing can harm you or disturb you there. And you can stay there as long as you need and you know when you emerge, you’ll emerge to the light again. Tunnels have the same effect as pipes, I don’t know if he’s referring to pipes that you smoke? He’s saying everyone should have a tunnel in their garden, a dark place they can escape too, they can be safe, they can let go, undisturbed, for as long as they need, then emerge again when they’re ready. It feels important that the floor of the tunnel is earth, that connection with earth. It's a bit like birth, being reborn, it’s a womb-like state, so you can go back to the beginning, a safe place, before you emerge to all of the harsh lights, the turmoil and the conflicts, the rough guys which are dominant in the world, so we all need a place to be safe where you don’t hear the crashing and the hubbub and the bombs. When the lights go out you know you’re safe. He's saying don’t belittle the dark, dark is good, dark has a purpose’

There was a tunnel at the top of the garden where they would shelter during World War 2 air raids. Granddad hated loud noises like bombs going on as he suffered from shell shock from the First World War.

Liz later told me she had felt very emotional and felt like crying and a feeling like post-traumatic stress or shellshock.

‘He’s saying candyfloss and sweet things, there’s a lot of candyfloss around but it doesn't keep you safe, it melts and leaves a sweet taste on your tongue but it quickly gets cloying. Going back to square one, to the sightless, formless, soundless, to the ground of being, ground zero, and then you start again, new start, rebirth every day. Life's full of shocks and traumas, full of ups and downs so we all need a safe space to ground again, go back to ground zero. God bless you all, love from granddad, thank you’

Liz thanked everyone who had come forward.

I then did the closing prayer, sent out healing and did our closing down exercise...

238th Sitting 11/03/2021

We had a Zoom meeting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG and I tuned in as Liz did the opening prayer.

I felt myself being controlled and the communication began...

‘The way you think alters how you perceive, the way you understand alters how you perceive but you yourself have your way of understanding, your way of bringing information into your mind. Each person is unique, thousands, millions, billions of minds working together in a physical world, a physical landscape mapped out for each and every one of you. Some of you have recognised the importance of using your physical life to build up within yourself a better understanding of yourself, of your world and of life itself. Many still live blindly, go about their daily routines in a hap hazard way but they too are learning, they are experiencing life and by experiencing life you build up within yourself a certain knowledge, something that you can hold on to and develop. You do not need to know all the answers, you merely need to live. Life in a physical world has so much more opportunity. Part of you is living that physical life and part of you is watching yourself. You do not need to know this for your purpose is to live a physical life’

‘The moment you are born you begin to build up within yourself an understanding at your level. Nothing can alter that except for your living experience, you are teaching yourself by observing others and by observing life. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Those that share your life, those that live with you, your friends, your relations, they too are living their lives, bringing life into the physical world that you all are a part of’

‘The older you get in a physical world the more tired you become for things have become familiar and you feel there is no more to discover. You see the young children of your world with fresh expressions on their faces for they are about to discover physical life in all its forms. You have much you can give to others, you can help others, you can help them to learn, you can help them to teach themselves. You may have lived your physical life and they may be beginning but you can help them, you can work with them and together a friendship will develop that will create more understanding. Reach out and touch each human being for they are also looking for answers, they have developed their own understanding. Each person in your world...’

For some reason the communication stopped and I lost the connection.

Liz then tuned in to see what she could get...

‘I saw a white-haired gentleman; it was the white hair that got to me, grandfather age and I immediately got Clive Dunn. It's that butchers shop image. Just connecting me with the war, with that period. Getting the name Charles. It's this profusion of white hair and I'm getting a connection with a commercial vehicle, I wanted to turn it into a milk cart or something. A vehicle that was being driven around but not just a car but for carrying things’

Me... ‘Is it a modern vehicle or an old vehicle?’

‘It’s got a cage around it and it’s painted. There's a car part at the front and this lorry part at the back. It's not very big, about the size of a milk cart. When I try to connect with a relationship, I get a knowing, a neighbour, a friend of the family. Something makes me think it’s your grandfather’s age but this feels more local, I get the feeling it’s connected with your mum’s father. Someone is showing me balloons and things connected with family parties, birthday parties, somebody who was present, seeing him wearing a paper hat. This person feels as though he was very humorous, very funny. He’s just giving me a sense of gin. He’s saying why can’t I just be an uncle. Just got a feeling of a tooth pick, he used a tooth pick and he had hearing aids in his ears. He's connected with a grocery store. I seeing old fashioned dust bins and lids, banging the lids down on these dustbins. He's giving me the sense of railway train lines or tram lines. He was around you when you were small, around the area where you lived’

Me... ‘I can’t place him at the moment’

‘Why he reminds me of Clive Dunn is the connection with Dad’s Army and the war, somebody connected with the home guard, that sort of period. He was there during the bombing of Eastbourne, this area’

‘Balloons seem to be important because he’s brought me back to balloons. I’ve got a sense of bee’s wax, furniture polishing, which takes me to church. I think this gentleman just wanted to be remembered, he’s given me the number 61, don’t know if that means anything’

Me... ‘It’s not ringing any bells at the moment’

‘For some reason when you said ringing bells it connected me with girls with pigtails, their hair in plats’

‘When I’m asking him to give you something you can recognise, he’s giving me a lime tree, one of those trees they plant, avenues of them. And an antique car, early old fashioned with a foldable hood and brass mountings, First World War type, really early vehicle. The sort they use for processions and bring out for special occasions. Reminds me of the things you saw at the Queen’s coronation. Got the word Daimler’

‘Just giving me the sense of a very normal life like you might have experienced when you were very little, crossing the road, zebra crossings, school crossings. I'm seeing him standing dressed up in the gear, holding a sign on a zebra crossing’

Me... ‘Like a lollypop man’

‘Yes... he’s giving me the sense that this was a man who liked being around small children, a sort of grandfatherly type, uncular, that was in the neighbourhood’

‘Just got a name, Mr Chapman’

Me... ‘Still none the wiser at the moment’

‘Okay, better say thank you’

‘Just got a sense of a lady coming forward with short dark hair, going grey, steely grey, in her 50s I think. She's wearing a flowery wrap over dress, like an old overall that people used to wear but could be a dress. She's quite thin and wiry, she’s wearing lipstick and showing me a smart black handbag. I feel this lady was a fastidious house-proud person, she liked to look smart when she went out to do the shopping, I don’t think she had a job as such. I feel she had trouble with her teeth. It's almost like there’s two sides to her, she was quite split somehow, two different people. There was some deep unhappiness, a sense of frustration, she didn’t feel fulfilled. She's saying the word Christian, she saw herself as being a Christian. She was raised a Christian. She smoked but she didn’t particularly like it, it was an unhappiness, it bred unhappiness in her, it made her feel that she was dirty somehow, that she wasn’t good enough. She's saying you don’t know what it’s like to have it constantly rubbed in your face and you can’t be just who you are, you’ve got to pretend to be someone else. She’s feeling she had to be dragged kicking and screaming into the world and she didn’t feel very comfortable, all these rules and everything. Got the name Sylvia. She’s mentioning fishes, fish pond. It's like she’s standing at a distance just watching, observing what’s going on. She’s saying this sort of stuff would make her cringe. I don’t know what stir crazy means?’

Me... ‘That’s something about being in prison, isn’t it?’

‘I’m not sure, it brought to my mind someone stirring a pot crazily, ha, ha... But that’s how she felt. It's like she’s worried about her hair, she wants to put slides in it or something to hold it back. She feels plain, not very beautiful. She tried to be a good girl but nothing was good enough, I don’t know why I wasted my life trying to be a good girl, it’s almost like there’s a bit of a hollow laugh there, she’s just coming to terms with it. I feel she would like to get out a cigarette and have a puff because it was that sort of nervous activity that would fill that nagging empty space, it made her feel mean, made her feel niggled, wanting to quibble about things, dissatisfaction, like wanting to nibble at biscuits, anything to take the edge off. She says I couldn’t stand being with myself, I knew there was love around me but I couldn’t really accept it, I couldn’t really open myself to it, I was just locked in. It was nice being able to go out and put a bright face on things, it would take the edge off for a bit. She enjoyed the park and nature but she always felt she had to do her duty but quite what her duty was, it was important to be terribly clean. It's almost like there was a scream inside her, sometimes all the lovely flowers and things she could have just torn them up, she just wanted to let out this big scream. I think she can see now, it’s like she’s just observing and she knows there are good people out there and she knows she’s alright. It's like she was two people and now she’s the person that she should be or can be, I’m going to say to her thank you’ 

‘She’s just put into my head the Rheidol Valley which is in Wales, a Welsh connection. I’m just seeing around my left wrist a gold bracelet, chain link bracelet. She’s taking me back to teeth, worried about teeth. I’m going to ask for healing for you. Another name popped into my head, Margery. I’m feeling this lady was a grandmother, there was some fondness for the grandchildren, seeing two girls. I’m going to say thank you to her, love and blessings to her and I hope you get that dark place in you filled with light now, we send you all of light and know there are healers in spirit, there’s plenty of help and support and I know you’re going to be fine and all that unhappiness can be shed, you can see it for what it was and be yourself again, love and blessing, thank you for making your appearance’

I then did the closing prayer, sent out healing and did our closing down exercise...

237th Sitting 02/03/2021

We had another Zoom sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

Liz did the opening prayer as I began to tune in.

I was soon controlled and the communication began...

‘All answers are followed by more questions, more enquiries, for there is never a satisfactory answer. Answers seem to partially answer the question, your question, for your question was created by you and you have already in your mind created an answer, an answer that has come to you. When you ask your questions you are really asking yourself, for you have all the answers if only you were to look inside of yourself, beyond your thoughts, beyond your beliefs, beyond your fears. At the core of your being there is available all the knowledge that you need, all the answers that you need but you as a physical form have been put in this world to experience for yourself, to work at discovering knowledge by experience, by your reactions to daily life and by how you interpret that life. You are a free spirit; you can go wherever you wish and your mind can take you to wherever you wish. A part of you is always looking for new experiences’ 

‘Try to change the way you think, try to change your life, change the way you act and your knowledge will grow. You have formed a habit in your life of looking at things in a particular way, of understanding things in a particular way but that habit can be broken. Listen to yourself as you live your life, see how you repeat, see how you stick to old ideas and then experiment with yourself, try something new. Do something that you would not normally wish to do. This will give you greater experience, this will widen your perception of life. It will help you to understand others for they have their own ideas, they have their own habits and like you they stick to those habits. You cannot change them but you can change yourself and in changing yourself you will understand those who are close to you, who live their lives with you and together more opportunities will develop’

‘There is only one thing holding you back and that is you yourself. Your whole physical life is an experiment and all experiments can be tweaked. You have nothing to lose and you have so much more to gain by changing yourself, tweaking your habits, bringing new ideas and a fresh approach to all situations. As you work with yourself to change yourself more opportunities will be presented to you to help, to help with this change. For as you change yourself your reality changes and your reality will be full of opportunities to help you widen your understanding without the restrictions of familiar habits’

‘Your world was created by minds the same as yours so you too can create, you too can do anything that you can think of, that you can imagine. Do not restrict yourself, live your life fully and all will benefit. Thank you, thank you my dear friend. Please continue your experiments, learn from your experiments, become something new, something positive, something that will help all of consciousness, all of life. Be the light in a dark world and you will attract other lights. Thank you’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Then Liz tuned in...

‘I’ve got a young man, he feels like he is 19, early 20s, quite young, that’s how I’m seeing him. Dark curly hair, quite short, cropped, sticking up. He's reminding me of a French lad that I knew, but I'm also getting a sense of the war, planes, aeroplanes but with round marks on the end of the wings, biplanes, so rather ancient planes, makes me feel this lad was a pilot. I’m getting your name connected with it, Pettitt side of the family, feeling like great uncle, that type of relation’

‘This young man feels full of hope and energy and the plane feels very prominent, I feel he was at the beginning of his life, branching out and this plane was almost bigger than him. Don’t know why he’s giving me the Normandy feeling, that might be a red herring but I originally got a sense of camel, which makes me feel he had a connection with the East or some campaign that was in the East, in a desert, you don’t find camels in Europe. I’m getting a sense of a shovel, digging, sand bags’

I think ‘camel’ could be a reference to a Sopwith Camel which was a single seat fighter biplane used in the first world war and not Liz's interpretation connecting it with the East.

‘He’s giving me a sense of a trophy; I can’t tell if it’s a photograph or an enlarged version of a badge but it’s coloured, could be something you hang on a wall, a mark of honour, green and blue colour in it, like a shield. He says I was proud to fight. It’s taking me to that poem by Yates... an Irish airman foresees his death amongst the clouds... He’s giving me the sense of a school tie, black and white stripes, old school tie. I feel school and learning must have been important to him. I'm seeing waves of the sea, looking at the waves quite close but from above so I don’t know if he landed in the sea? Last ditch. He's giving me the sense of a parachute but I’m seeing it trailing, it wasn’t really open’

‘Saying something about home comforts. It just feels that he was still a lad, I don’t know if he’s been around you as I’ve got that sense of the Robinson's marmalade with the gollywog on it. It just makes me feel he was identifying with you somehow. He's just put in my mind the idea of a swan song. Lonely tumult of delight, it’s just bringing me to that poem of Yates... that I shall find my fate somewhere among the clouds above, those that I fight I do not hate but those that I serve I do not love but the end is a lonely tumult of delight drove this impulse, lonely impulse of delight drove to this tumult in the clouds... He’s just giving me this incredible sense of hope of opening out but there’s the trophy, there was a trophy connected with it. He feels a very optimistic and open young man. He wants to hold a candle up to you, something to do with a candle. He wants to pass this baton on to you, pass this impulse on to you, this feeling of optimism and I think he’s with you, that he gives you that. It's almost like he’s part of you but he’s taking me to an inkwell again, schooling things, he was interested in learning, would have gone to university but the universe is a university’

The Robinson’s marmalade/gollywog is a connection to my dad’s parents. My granddad was in the first world war but he didn’t fly aeroplanes and he lived into his 70s. He had one brother but he also lived into his 70s. Maybe this is someone my granddad knew at the time?

I've just asked my brother and like me he said granddad never mentioned anything about planes. He went on to say the only person with an interest in planes was dad and he built a model Sopwith Camel.

‘Getting a feeling of rhododendrons in my mind, very large bushes, reminds me of a large vicarage where we used to live, country estates and parks. I’m seeing black birds like rooks flying, I think he wants to get out his binoculars and watch. He gives me this sense of spaciousness and openness in everything he’s showing me and it’s now taking me to tents and it feels like the dessert again, dessert snakes in the sand. I'm thinking of the pyramids, don’t know if this is Egypt way? He’s making me feel something about the Nomadic life, the Nomads and Arabs appealed to him. I'm feeling he was actually there briefly. Now I'm seeing quite a lot of people with turbans and checked head gear. Khaki uniform and leather. He's taking me to an experience of the night sky, that incredible black sky with stars, it’s like he was in love with that landscape too, a richness, a complete contrast, very bright the light there’ 

‘I'm trying to find out why he’s there with you and it’s like a baton race, passing a baton down the ages and he’s passed it to you. It's this sense of wonder and exploration, it’s that that he shares with you, the opening out into invisible places. I get a sense from him, I was cut off before my time but that time carries on, it was very rich, a concentrated sweet experience of life, really sharp focus’

‘I'm just looking into a rhododendron flower again, and again it’s like sharp focus, I'm seeing like the bee in the flower. He's saying delight in everything in nature, every living thing around you in every opportunity, a bit like what you were saying, he’s affirming that, to rejoice, this narrow band of opportunity we have with sharp focus. To delight the senses, to delight the spirit, a bit like in Blake’s poem... to see the world in a grain of sand or eternity in an hour... To turn up the resolution in your seeing, in your being and you don’t need the binoculars to do that, you just need to be completely present with every opportunity, every incident that is offered to you, to be completely there, to take in and digest every facet that is incredibly intricate and a beautiful pageant, but you are exploring in every moment and that seeing, that delight, that intensity of experience and emotion coming together. It lasts because it’s obviously still with him, he’s able to convey it somehow, I can feel that freshness, it’s as if he can still live it, he can still reconnect with that experience because it’s almost like an artist who has painted something beautiful they see, and that immortalises it and other people can see it. So it is for him that that intensity of life, because he was open hearted in his experience of his life and full of optimism, full of all that incredible wonder and sense of intrepid exploration that it glazed itself on his inward eye, the imagination, on his spirit so it’s there like an everlasting picture’

‘I just get the feeling from this beautiful lad that a short life well lived can feel as eternal, as bright as a long life where you don’t experience, you just drudge along without experiencing anything intensely and that just dissolves like cotton wool into the grey sludge. It's like he’s waving but he gives me the impression it’s a red flag he’s waving. Red is for life, not danger. They say you wave a red flag to a bull to make it charge, so it’s like he’s daring, daring to live. I dare you he’s saying, and what do you risk losing when you know you don’t lose your life because you carry on and he discovered that’

‘Thank you so much for your presence and message, that’s beautiful that you’ve shared that and that sheer poetry of your being. It's very good to know that you’re around, love and blessings to you’

‘He's bringing my attention back to the medals or trophies, something that will help you connect to him. I'm seeing them smaller now but ornate and there's a silver cup amongst them with a marble base’

I then did the closing prayer, sent out healing and did our closing down exercise...