228th Sitting 18/12/2020

We had another Zoom Sitting.

Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

Liz did an opening prayer while I tuned in and was soon controlled.

The connection felt strong as the communication began...

‘Everything comes for a reason. You are developing a connection with a larger audience. Imagine them all seated around you waiting for their turn to speak. They have to rely on you to give them that mouthpiece, to allow them to say what they want to say. You have developed up to a point and you will continue to develop and as you develop each connection will grow stronger, you will let go and allow that what comes to you to burst forth, to bring through words, words that can be understood, can be recognised and words that will generate love in the hearts of those who receive them. All mediumship is a form of healing and in healing it reaches the hearts of those who feel confused and in their confusion they feel sadness for those who have left their physical world. Each form of mediumship plays its part in alleviating that sadness, in bringing joy into the hearts of those who feel they have been left behind. It gives them the understanding that those who have left their world are still very much a part of their lives. They begin to see the connection; they begin to feel the connection. As they hear the messages so it strengthens their own connection for they no longer believe that they are far away, they now have that truth in their mind that they are close and they can be contacted’

‘Mediumship is a wonderful tool throughout your world and as you reach a time in your world, a time where the science of your world begins to shake off its beliefs, begins to see a clearer model of a reality that contains more than just physical matter, a reality that can be sensed beyond the physical senses, a reality that is fundamental, fundamental in the production of life. They will see the small part they play in a physical world and the greater part they play in the spiritual vibrations. Mediumship contributes to the overall understanding, the development of understanding throughout your world. Those in search of answers tread many paths. They may tread the scientific path, they may tread the artistic path, they may not know where to look but within your world there are many pockets of development in many areas and as somebody begins to look for greater understanding they will be nudged into situations where they will hear, where they will see evidential communication, something which will widen their understanding, widen their perspective on the meaning of life. There are many beliefs in your world and each leads to a solid truth. Do not worry about the details, the details are not important. What is important is how you feel. You will know when you are facing the truth and you will understand the confusions that lead to that truth. For nothing is written in stone, everything is developing and as life develops you also develop and you find new answers to new questions. Keep asking those questions, keep questioning the answers, do not believe and you will know’ 

‘A brighter world awaits you; a stronger understanding awaits you; you are doing the work and you will reap the benefits in all that you do, thank you, thank you my dear friend and continue your wonderful experiment’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend, that’s very affirming’

I soon felt back with it then Liz began to tune in...

‘I seem to be getting a lesson in percussion, I got an accordion first of all which I connected with your dad, then I got an image of a banana boat and felt your dad behind me making some slightly ironic remark on a boat and then playing percussion with sticks, could be a xylophone, being noisy. Says he just wants a voice’

Dad had a habit of tapping the table with his fingers and hands at meal time. There was a particular beat he used to do with one hand turning over and then back again. He told me his grandad used to do it and I copied him and still do it now myself sometimes.

‘It’s almost like he’s wrapping me in a fur rug’

My dad came through to Liz earlier talking about being wrapped in cotton wool and this gave Liz a feeling of vertigo and she also felt this when he came through strongly during one of our Zoom sittings recently. The fur rug could symbolise a rug of protection for her.

‘He put an image of a bear in my head, like a bear hug’

‘He just put the image in my head of a tooth brush and a beaker, looks like a child’s toothbrush, the beaker is patterned. Could be connected with when you were little, a memory. It's to do with habits, you learned habits when you were little that last with you for life, you hope to keep your teeth for life. It makes me feel he lost his teeth’

Dad didn’t lose his teeth but teeth make me think of two things. Brenda told me she cleaned his teeth just after he died and the other thing is, I’ve had a couple of bits break off my teeth recently but don’t think I need a dentist as there’s no pain, maybe I should go?

‘Comfort, cold comfort. I think that was what he was telling me before, all the fussing and attention, wrapping in cotton wool, it’s cold comfort, what you are losing. I don’t think he could say how he was feeling, being an invalid, wrapped in cotton wool, needing all that care. It was a loss of self-respect I think, a loss of potency. I think that’s why he wants to shout and make a noise now. He's got his energy back, saying something like a radio broadcast that it’s not the end. I don’t think he wants to be remembered for that being in cotton wool, it’s undignified’

He never talked to me about how he was feeling towards the end but I could tell he was in a lot of pain. He was very frustrated about not being able to do the things he used to do but again hid his emotions and put on a brave face.

‘He’s giving me a sense of a zoo or animal park. I seem to be in front of the monkey cage feeding the monkeys. Maybe that’s where the banana boat came in?’

I have a memory of when we were young visiting Longleat Safari Park and the monkeys did some damage to the wipers on the car.

‘He’s taking me back to the Chatterjee and the feeling that the monkey mind can make a silk turban out of a sow's ear. 

‘There's something forming in the back of my mind, it’s like a sign at a station, seeing it in green and white, connected with a railway, a station. I'm standing at a platform looking at this sign, I can’t read what’s on the sign. Into my head came the idea of Brighton. I’ve got paint brushes; he wants to paint something. With this big brush it’s like painting on a wall ‘pick of the day’ it’s like the highlights of the day, things that stand out’

One of dads specialities was being able to say the word Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch and when in Wales on holiday we went to Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch train station and dad bought a platform ticket which was extra-long. When Liz said Brighton and then got paint brushes I thought he was going to paint over the word Brighton as it was wrong. It was like he was playing a trick knowing that Liz probably wouldn’t get Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch and if she did she won’t be able to say it!!!

‘He's giving me the feeling of a cat, reminding me of a tortoiseshell cat we used to have. A feeling of a cat being very peaceful, very restful, very present. Feline. Serendipity. The moving finger writes and having written moves on... Chance encounters, chance happenings, spirit led. The idea that fate, you can’t change things, you can’t adjust, there is such a thing as serendipity which is like luck, which can shift things. But like the cat you have to be aware, you have to notice them, you have to be alert. Just minor adjustments can be made by these serendipitous events, things that come into your life, chance encounters, meetings that can cause a subtle change, help to change circumstances, change the way you think, the way you feel, the way you act. Getting a feeling like a village jumble sale, a fete, different stalls selling different things. You come across something you hadn’t expected to see, something unanticipated. You go along to an event like that and something seemingly random catches your attention and hooks you, could be a book, could be an object. He's showing me a train, a model train, quite large. That chance purchase can have long term unanticipated effects, serendipitous purchase’

‘I keep feeling him with the grandchildren, I think he had great affection, feeling that moulding of children, how the little things that you introduce into their lives with children can shape their futures in so many ways, their interests, their direction’

Yes, he loved the grandchildren and was pleased that one of them became interested in magic.

‘We don’t even remember how habits were formed, they start very early on, they shape our life, and I'm sensing they even shape your afterlife except things grow bigger, expand. As I said the word expand, I asked Michael to give me something and it turned into rubber band, stretching, there’s a lot about stretching and I think the idea is not to get tied up in the tricks, in the habits, keep stretching and going beyond because the habits lock you in even after death but you begin to see more of the opportunities’

‘I’m seeing a bar and a liquor store, it’s a limited scene but there’s so much more. Giving me that image of the sun, like it’s in the corner of the screen but it’s a prominent force, effect, that light’

‘Got the name Henry, John Henry’

Dad’s mother came through to me in a séance about 15 years ago and mentioned an Uncle Henry who I couldn’t place at the time but found him later on the family tree one generation above my gran so it was her uncle. Not sure about the John though.

‘Seeing a great big gate to a field, like a hurdle that has to be overcome, got over. Before you can leap over and go to the sun it’s like there’s something beyond and there’s a bit of a barrier before you can get to that, to the sun. Just seeing birds, magpies in the field, black and white birds. That’s interesting, the words earlier were going through my mind, a poem by Rumi... Out beyond ideas of rightdoing or wrongdoing there is a field, I'll meet you there... The black and white is the human judgment of negative and positive, good and bad, the way we categorise things’

‘He just put in my mind the idea of mustard, I don’t know if it’s like mustard and cress growing in the field or the word must, you must do this you must do that’

This could be a memory for me as I have never liked mustard but dad loved it and used it a lot.

‘I'm sensing the broadening out, the stretching is to do with going beyond the limitations of the confines of our thinking, our habits, good and bad, must and should, prerogatives’

‘Now he’s putting on his wizard’s hat. It's got suns and moons and stars on it. Saying I want a bit of magic. Sooty bear and Sweep. He’s wanting to go beyond; he’s seen the possibilities but still a little bit stuck with the habits of a lifetime and not quite over the effects of the last few years. Just showing me fences. A crust of bread, having to earn your crust of bread. Don’t worry about where the next morsel of food is coming from, the universe will provide. Perhaps he did in his life and that’s a habit. To realise you don’t have to worry about those things must be wonderful. I’m seeing all these fences and it’s like you still have to... these fences are connected to all these habits and conditioning. You don’t just drop them just like that, you do carry them with you’

‘He’s gone back to the toothpaste again, it’s like a plastic cup with flowers on it, might be a girl’s one, it’s got pink and yellow flowers on it, it’s pale blue and it’s for putting the toothpaste and toothbrush in. There's some significance, don’t know if it’s for you, Brenda or the grandchildren. He’s giving me the image of a pansy. And now an image of cowboys’ 

‘I sense he wanted you to be the masculine image of the male, all the things that men like doing and overlooked the more sensitive side, the female aspect, the emotional side, and he’s realising that. A side he suppressed in himself, it came out in different ways and maybe he urged you to suppress that other side of your nature. He can see that that in a way limited you. So he’s giving me the girlie images and then juxtaposing those with the cowboy, rough and ready blokey type. I think he had to keep that suppressed in himself, back then, during the war it was frowned on, effeminate men, nowadays it’s... He’s giving me the words systematic error... my feeling is it’s related to upbringing and training which subverts, causes malfunction. He’s giving me the word tearful, to cry. He says it makes you dull if you have to suppress those things, dulls you down’

Dad did suppress his sensitive side to me and my brother. Brenda told me that he got upset about trivial things during the last few years of his life and often cried.

‘Getting the diamond image’

‘I’m saying to him I know you are trying to not overwhelm my energy, putting that blanket round me but I’m asking him to come closer so I can feel more clearly what he’s trying to convey. The minute I said that I begin to feel, I get that tinge of vertigo, he just has to tread carefully, sorry... ha, ha, he’s giving me the image of a great big bear, ha, ha... he’s saying I'm much too delicate, like a porcelain doll’

‘Keep getting daisy, daisy, images of daisy so I don’t know if Travis is there in the background, working at it, trying to adjust, thank you Travis, we can all work together I'm sure. Just popped into my mind the image of Rupert Bear and his little friend, they always had adventures together. Now I've got the word Shen, that’s interesting, Shen is the name I have for one of my guides, Tibetan or Chinese. That’s interesting referring to Rupert and his little Chinese friend, female friend. I think he’s just there affirming that the adventures will take us to a higher place, a place in the clouds with the teachings and for Michael too, all of us, we have helpers’

‘I'm going to say now I think that’s enough, we have Shen, the Diamond and Travis, lots of helpers, all those fences are going to melt away and we will make it into the sun, into that great light, the spiritual journey we are all beginning on together and hopefully teaching and a lot more will come through’

Liz thanked all our friends and did a closing prayer.

We sent out healing and did our closing down exercise...

227th Sitting 09/12/2020

We had another Zoom meetup.

Liz wasn’t wired to the Mind Mirror EEG this week.

Liz did the opening prayer then tuned in to see what she could get...

‘It’s rather strange, I got a sense of chickens and then this Indian gentleman with the name Chatterjee stepped forward. He’s quite elderly, in his 70s or 80s, light brown complexion, slightly bald head, greying hair at the sides. A very kind gentleman, slightly bent, reminding me of the monkey mind because of the name Chatterjee and it’s like he’s got a pet monkey and the chickens around him, I feel he might have a pet shop or animal sanctuary. He's got a large ring on his finger he’s making me aware of, quite ornate with silver, quite a large ring, green turquoise stone in the centre but it changes colour, also blood red. He’s got crates of oranges and vegetables as well’

Me... ‘He’s not ringing any bells with me at the moment, maybe he’s just brought a message of some sort?’

‘Yes... he just gave me an image of a Zebra Crossing and I usually get that sense with somebody that is mixed race, or the connection between mixed cultures’

‘Did I hear a dog barking from your end?’

Me... ‘No, I didn’t hear anything’

‘I could hear one here’ 

‘He’s putting some lights in an incense holder hanging from a ceiling. This is a man who had a very simple life, was a tradesman, maybe had a stall that dealt with all sorts of things but he feels to me like quite a spiritual man, engaged in spiritual thinking and practise, but he had a very open outlook on the world. He's putting into my head, it’s not what you do or what you say it’s how you are that’s important. I think he had lots of fruit in his shop, he’s giving a lot to his monkey. Feeding the monkey mind with good things, healthy stuff. It's a delight, he loves his monkey mind but he feeds it with good stuff, good fruit, and when he lights his candle it’s when the monkey sits on his shoulder and it’s quiet because he knows that’s time for devotional practice, time to sit still and just be with the light. He's saying you don’t need a temple or a mountain, he’s just sitting in his store room. It seems that element of lighting the candle is like a signal to the monkey to sit quietly. I think that’s his message. He's taking me to his wrist, he’s got a chain on his wrist and his ring on his finger. Thank you sir, thank you for your message and your presence’

‘I just got a name Andrew, and it comes with a school tie. Whether this is a school connection of yours, Andrew?’

Me... ‘We used to take a boy to school called Andrew’

‘The tie he’s showing me is horizontal stripes, black and light blue. Saying something about polo, does that ring a bell? I think of the game, horse polo but it’s also the mint with the hole in the middle’

Me... ‘No I can’t think of a connection with polo’

He did like his food particularly cakes and sweets, he also liked animals and looked out for sheep, cows and horses on the journeys.

‘I’m seeing horses and horse racing, I wonder if that’s a connection with Travis, perhaps he’s helping him?’

‘I’m seeing him as a young man, a young executive, could have been working in a store, department store or supermarket in a managerial role, he’s dressed in a suit and he’s young, he’s not showing himself much older than that’

I remember he got a job working with animals after he left school and also loved performing on stage. I think he also got a job working in a shop but can’t be sure.

‘Just got an image of a hot air balloon, something happened to take him off. I think he had cancer because I'm seeing the elephant’s tusks and I connect that with Joan’

‘I’m seeing school playing fields’

‘I don’t know if he shared school with you?’

Me... ‘No’

‘It was a different school’

Me... ‘Yes’

‘Okay, but he’s showing me school playing fields. I think it’s to do with cricket, games’

I think this is to do with his surname which he is trying to get through to Liz, it was Andrew Field.

‘I keep seeing a taxi and it makes me think he was one of the children you took to a special school’

Me... ‘Yes he was’

This is evidential as when I said we used to take a boy to school called Andrew, Liz assumed I was talking about the time when I was going to school. It seems that Andrew has realised this so shows Liz an image of a taxi. She then remembers that I used to take special needs children to school in my taxi.

‘So does it make sense that he would have left school by now and got a job’

Me... ‘Yes he’s a lot older now’

‘My feeling is that something has happened, he’s now on the other side’

Me... ‘I might find that out later as we normally get a Christmas card from his mum’

‘He’s giving me a warm feeling about the taxi; it was quite a safe space for him. Just that sense of gratitude for creating a safe space’ 

‘He likes the feeling of being in a suit and having a job and being in control of his life a little bit more. It's almost like something happened to pluck him up, this hot air balloon. It felt like he shifted to another level, he’s still travelling and wanted you to know he’s alright, he’s there, he’s enjoying it, he’s seeing things from a new level, he’s looking down on the counterpane, the fields, the Earth and it gave him a new perspective’

‘I feel for him the best part of school, what he’s showing me, was the playing field, the games’

He did enjoy games at school and always looked forward to the annual Sports Day.

‘I'm seeing him as quite a slim boy with dark hair and tall’

Me... ‘He had dark hair but I wouldn’t say he was slim’

He was actually quite chubby and short.

‘He’s showing me himself in a suit, but his face had an anxious expression about it, freckles, ears protruding slightly. I think he felt a bit left footed in his life’

Me... ‘What do you mean by left footed?’

‘It’s a strange expression but wrong footed, he always put his foot in things. Maybe he was dyslectic?’

Me... ‘He could have been, he had a lot of issues’

He had down’s syndrome and was very clumsy, knocking things over and putting his foot in things at times which he found amusing.

‘That feeling of not being able to get things quite right, or in perspective, and that feeling of going up in a hot air balloon has sorted that out somehow’

‘He’s showing me a Christmas card, he just wants to send you a Christmas card’

We still send his mum a Christmas card and she sends one to us with a long message of what has happened in the last year.

‘I’ll say thank you Andrew, thank you for making your appearance and for Travis for helping, love and blessings to you’

‘I think he liked having you both there, you and Sarah both in the car, it was like having mummy and daddy on that journey’

He only had a mum who had adopted him. He never had a dad so probably liked the idea of having a mum and a dad on the journey to and from school.

‘It almost sounds like a cliché but I’m sensing an old man, quite thin, white hair, quite long and a white beard. But he feels like an academic and he’s smiling, he’s reminding me of someone. He’s got a feeling a bit like Brian who came to our group. But I'm feeling he’s got a connection with science. I think he’s a doctor, a psychiatrist, somebody in that field or a psychologist. I think this is Geoffrey Blundell who was the electrical engineer who worked on the Mind Mirror. I’m asking him to give me a clue if it is him and he’s giving me GB. He’s put a notion in my head about three ugly ducklings, the story of the ugly duckling that is rejected then grows into a swan. When he said three ugly ducklings I'm thinking of Max Cade, Dr Ann Woolley-Hart and Geoffrey Blundell, the three people I associate with the Mind Mirror, and I think that’s his joke, the three ugly ducklings who have turned into three beautiful swans. I get this sense of a piano or keyboard, music and he’s giving me an indication that music is important, sound, in setting the right brain wave patterns. I was doing experiments with drum beats set at different frequencies. He’s saying it’s to entrain the mind, to entrain the brain waves. Alpha, he’s saying the alpha is important. He’s saying you have to establish your signature, signature tune. He's taking me to an image of brown brogue lace up shoes, dusting the mud off them, keeping your equipment in good working order, cleaning things. Giving me the sense of the sun and he’s using the French word soleil making me think of soleil luminaire, sound and light, both have very profound effects on the brain in the type of patterns you produce. I'm asking him if my experimenting is yielding anything useful. He's giving me a sense of play, just be playful, he’s saying you’ll see how it will help you, giving me an image of the ticket for the bus ride, it’s like it’s clocking the journey, the experiments are clocking the journey, giving the itinerary, have fun, he’s treating it like a holiday. He’s waving goodbye, he’s very warm and friendly, thank you Geoffrey’

Liz thanked and said goodbye to everybody

Then I tuned in and was soon controlled...

‘Once again, we come through to speak with you, give you some form of useful information, something which will make you think, something which will give you a new understanding for you are always looking for something new, something which has not been on your mind. You have a belief that there is something shielded from you but that belief is a false belief for you are connected to all of life, everything is available for you. You have to find that key, that key that unlocks all that is shielded from you. Look at your world, see how your world flourishes, how your world renews itself each year. Ask yourself what is behind the renewal of life on your world. You as an individual see yourself as a part of that world, you understand your own beginning in that world and how you have grown and developed. And you can feel that there is something behind you, something pushing you, something motivating you, something giving you the idea that a greater power exists. But your beliefs tell you that you have no access to that power. You all need to wake up, you all need to feel the power, feel the love, feel life itself motivating you, pushing you forward. You too add to that love by the way you live your life and that love is you. You do not feel it, you are it, you create it and you receive it. Nothing is greater than the love that motivates all of life, love that is continually expanding, and you play your part in helping that love to expand, to grow as you live your life. Try to understand that life is for living, life is fun, life is joyous. You are all in it together creating and growing. See it as a game, a game of life and you all play your part. The negativities and confusions that you experience in life are there as building blocks for your own growth. Rejoice when you experience negativity, know that you have put yourself into that situation to grow, to learn, to create more love. Hold hands with life and feel the love within yourself shining brighter each day. Carry that smile wherever you go knowing that the smile on your face represents that love in your heart, thank you, thank you my dear friend’

Liz... ‘Thank you friend’

Liz then did the closing prayer, sent out healing and did our closing down exercise...

226th Sitting 04/12/2020

We had a Zoom meetup and Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

Liz did an opening prayer then I went first.

After a few minutes I started to be controlled and the communication began...

‘Each day of your life is an open book. Fill that book with experience, for that book will develop into an open book of knowledge, knowledge gained from experience. That knowledge is required for without knowledge you have no means of interpreting information given to you. Each time you feel yourself developing within yourself you will know that you have gained more knowledge, more experience. Life is experience and you live that life day by day knowing that you are drawing closer to the true you, that what guides you, that what is inside of you trying to burst out. You are growing, you are becoming more and you are gathering experience and knowledge. As an individual in a world of physical matter you have nothing to fear. Your fears are created by yourself. Try to find those fears and extinguish those fears for they are not required, they are not a part of you. You have seen fears come and go but those that you cling to are not necessary. As you grow you will see how futile fears can be, they have no purpose other than to blind you to your true self. Your physical world was designed to give you the opportunity to rid yourself of those fears, but it is also the reason for those fears, for you feel alone, you do not feel that connection with all of life until you have developed more, until you have grown. You are all working on yourselves and together you are creating a vibration throughout your world which will help you to grow. As you grow your world grows and becomes an environment in which you will find no need for fears but fears still come and go. Try to understand the effect of fears on yourself, recognise that effect and try to understand why. You have all the time in the world to work on those fears and you will be helped but ultimately it is you who makes the choices, who chooses to change yourself or stay the same. You look back on your life and you see the mistakes you have made and yet at that time those mistakes were the choices that you made. See how you have grown; see how you have developed and be joyous in the knowledge that as you grow your life will become so much brighter’

‘You are being watched, you are watched by yourself, that part of you with one foot in the physical and one foot in the spiritual. It is a part of you and can be lived. You as an individual can access all of you, all that exists. Allow yourself to be receptive to that what connects you to the spiritual world for that is you. There is no break between the two worlds, they are one, you merely shield yourself from the spiritual world with your own beliefs. Allow your beliefs to crumble and allow your mind to expand and you will see the true makeup of yourself, of your consciousness and how it connects to all of life. Take yourself out of yourself and see the world in all of its true beauty, devoid of beliefs, devoid of expectations. Allow your world to present itself to you, do not present it to yourself from within, thank you my dear friend’

Then Liz tuned in to see what she could get...

‘I got a name Terry and I felt the presence of a red-haired boy, ginger haired, a bit like Dennis the Menace...’ 

My wife and I were talking about her uncle Terry today who died in his 50s. He had a childish character, a bit of a practical joker like Dennis the Menace and had ginger hair.

‘...but I’ve got a man with greyish hair, thinning on top. I'm seeing him with a roundish face and the hair is thin and smoothed on top, he’s reminding me of my Sunday School teacher, a very kind person but I think this is your grandfather on your mum’s side. He’s a bit fingers and thumbs today, that’s the feeling I'm getting, he’s around his greenhouse again. He wants to put gloves on, with holes, with the fingers cut out. A sense of snow coming’

Maybe just a coincidence but I wore my gloves for the first time this winter today but they don’t have holes for the fingers 

‘He’s giving me a sense of a robin, a round robin. A glass of sherry, something to warm you. A pearl earring or a pearl’

Robins and sherry are good but I can’t be sure about pearls or pearl earrings.

‘A bicycle, propped up against his greenhouse’

I remember finding an old bike propped up against the wall in his cellar which he let me have. It had an extra-large tyre on the back which I thought looked good and fitted it to my bike. I also cut off the front forks and had them welded to the front forks on my bike turning it into a ‘chopper’ bike.

‘Cabbages... reminds me of a boy I knew who had a deformed ear, a cauliflower ear. He’s saying there are some days when you’re feeling all fingers and thumbs, can’t get things quite right, fumbling, a feeling of being old, he felt that, trying to keep going, giving me a sense of himself shuffling in his carpet slippers’

‘He’s giving me a sense that he might have smoked cigarettes at some point, but he put them away in the dustbin, they deserved to go in the dustbin’

Yes, he smoked rollups, I used to be fascinated watching him roll cigarettes and he had loads of tobacco tins which he used to put odds and ends in. I can’t remember if he gave them up or not.

‘He’s polishing windows, maybe a metaphor for not clouding your vision. Seeing him inside the greenhouse cleaning the windows, they’re getting all misted up, everything’s getting misted up. He’s giving me a sense of warmth, warmth of the sun. I think he’s talking about the transition from when he was old and getting cloudy, his vision of the world was getting cloudy, impaired and it was like stepping out into the warm sunshine after a cold spell, that was what dying was like, a release into spring again, into the summer, being young again. He's saying that fear of terminal decline, getting stiffer, all fingers and thumbs with the vision clouding, it’s just part of the fading away and not to be afraid of that, not to fear that because sooner or later you step out of that, that is not an intrinsic part of you, that old age. Realise you can step out of that into the Summerland. He's showing me the bright coloured wall flowers and spring flowers, watering them. Getting a feeling of that Ford car of his again. He’s giving me the impression of planting again, new growth, new plants. I'm surprised to see him planting a new vegetable patch but it’s that feeling that if you don’t see the fruits as you decline you lose connection with the fruits of your labour. You don’t stop in the Summerland; you carry on where you left off in your prime. It's a letting go, there’s a necessary period before you die of letting go, you have to let go of the physical before you can enter into the new phase, this new field and then the work carries on, the things you really love like the car, the planting, the growing things, if that’s what you like, that’s what you do. It's like your gran is behind him with the tea towel, it’s almost like they’ve recreated their life in a way that they shared but it’s somehow got larger because the area he’s planting feels more like a field’ 

‘He's putting an image in my head of coils of rope, a sense of a boat, the coils of rope to tether it is a safety device when you set out on the sea, to make sure you can still get back to where you came from. I think that’s a fear that if you set out you might not be able to get back, you might get lost. That safety rope is a devise to keep you tethered. The coils of rope keep you tethered to the physical and they are there because of the fear of letting go, going free, risking the journey on the sea of spirit. Your grandfather is saying look at me I can come back, I passed over but I haven’t actually gone, I'm not lost’ 

‘I've got a lady, quite thin, large spectacles, dark rims. She’s got a darkish skin, slightly olive, Mediterranean feel. She was around in the 60s, maybe a little earlier. Might have been involved in spiritual work as a teacher, a piano, a waiting room like a school room or surgery. I feel this was a lady who was quite firm and strict and had clear boundaries, quite efficient but pleasant, stern but not someone to be afraid of. She could be very kind. Plum pudding. She’s got an auntie feeling about her. A dog with her, black scotty dog. I think she knew you when you were little, do you have an aunt that fits that description?’

Me... ‘No, I can’t place her at the moment’

‘Could have been a nursery teacher or an early teacher, I see toys around her but she has an auntie feeling about her, it’s almost like you were one of her little charges, maybe she treated all children like family? There’s Christmas parties, picture books, stories, things that stimulate children’s imagination. She’s showing me a particular story with a wolf in it like Little Red Riding Hood, scary stories that children have, children being magicked away and little boys with their heads chopped off, children being treated badly, wicked witches, the big bad wolf. But these are all offset by the gingerbread house, the plum pudding, the Christmas presents and the parties, all these are elements of the nursery school, the early learning. Early imagination is being fed with on the one hand the gingerbread house but the fears associated with it with the witch that tries to push the children in the oven. Hand in hand with the enchanted wood and the benevolence of Little Red Riding Hood taking goodies to her grandma is the deviousness of cunning human nature that wants to steal the life and the beauty, wants to seize it and corrupt it and take it away, wants to harm and distort. These are the elements that are built into the psyche, little children and then these are there in the world, the fairy stories prepare you for the real world where there is much good but also much evil, there are good intentions and bad intentions. I'm just seeing the word discernment, as you grow up you discern true intention to steer your course. But there’s always the fairy godmother. It's like Hansel and Gretel where they’re sensible and they have a coloured string so they can retrace their path so that they know where they are. Safety devises, knowing that you can outwit the evil intent when you recognise it but the real danger is in not recognising. And that was a teaching that there were so many strategies for overcoming the negative pull of the dark side, recognising it for what it is, like the wolf dressed up in the grandmother’s clothing has bad intention and so you are able to take action then and there is always help once you recognise. Red Riding Hood called for the woodcutter who rescued her from the wolf. Knowing that you can call on your guardian angel, your fairy godmother, your genie, your Jesus, your healer for help in every situation where you recognise there’s something not right, something wrong, some danger that you can solicit this help. The pathway for overcoming fears is actually written into that early learning but children often remember just the scary bits’ 

‘This lady keeps showing me herself at a piano, a keyboard. Corn or cornfield. Seeing a playground with games children used to play, hopscotch. She was connected with early schooling; she wants me to say the word joy, a joy in teaching those malleable minds. Feeding the sparrows. She looks like the mother of the Wooden Tops, showing me a train journey, I think she moved away, she was relatively young. I'm asking her to give me something you would definitely recognise and I get the word gloria, a word you sing in hymns and Christmas songs. She’s giving me a sense of a purring cat, a ginger and white cat. A school playground. She could even have been a dinner lady. I feel her blowing a whistle. Getting a sense of wrapping something up in cellophane, not like the clingfilm we have now but actual cellophane, slightly stiffer, I feel it’s sandwiches. She's reminding me of a lady who helped out with adults with learning disabilities, can’t remember if her name was Diane’

I still can’t place this lady. It doesn’t help that I can’t remember any teachers from my early years at school.

‘I'm sensing your father is around, I’m getting Father Christmas. A sense of yule log and advent calendars. He’s got an axe like a wood chopper. Do you have an open fire?’

Me... ‘No, we don’t’

‘I'm associating chopping wood with an open fire, he’s in a wood chopping small trees. Getting a sensation of corrugated iron, he’s got boots on, tramping around in a muddy patch. Drinking a glass of milk, I associate that with calcium. I'm asking why he’s drinking a glass of milk, it’s to do with bone building, maintaining strength, getting the right mineral balance, it’s cow’s milk, cows you milk by hand, an organic source. He’s got an accordion, a keyboard out. He’s gallivanting, singing and music is good for you, to do with expression, expressing. Let your voice free and rejoice. You can play the Christmas carols, the Holly and the Ivy’ 

‘I'm seeing candle sticks. Have you got candle sticks that belonged to your mum or dad?’

Me... ‘No’

‘Is Brenda alone for Christmas?’

Me... ‘We’ll be going round there’

‘Light a candle for him, and sing the Holly and the Ivy with Brenda and he’ll be joining in with you, have a little festival’

‘I'm seeing a Christmas tree with the number 4 on it. That’s the number of this house. Maybe this place is important? Yes, this is the place he made his presence felt in one of our séances. It's a large number 4 in silver. In his Father Christmas guise, he’s got this bag of presents, he’s got lots of goodies in store for us’

‘Just got a sense of Roy Rogers something you can connect with him, cowboy westerns’

Yes, dad was a great fan of Clint Eastwood. We have his DVD with all the Clint Eastward cowboy westerns and recently watched them all.

‘He’s taking me to the sacred, reminding me of my tradition, the Mezuzah, the things you put outside your house in the Jewish tradition, to remind you of God and Spirit, the Jewish prayer in the Shema. It's like it’s on the gate post of this house, number 4. It’s a place for spirit, a place that’s dedicated. He’s giving me tram lines again, interconnecting journeys, pathways, travel lines but with the signals and points you can divert the tracks one with the other, they all interconnect. Not sure if he’s being the signal man or the line switcher. We have to learn to be able to switch and that’s the secret of mediumship, you make this transition so you can share somebody else's journey and then switch back, change tracks’

‘He just gave me the word twiggy’

Not sure why he’s saying twiggy

‘He's dressing up as a magician now, he’s in a velvet gown, deep purple with a wizard’s hat on with the stars and moon, pointy hat and magic wand. Reminds me of the throws in our séance room and the conical hat is like the séance trumpet, the cone. I think he’s going to help us with physical mediumship, I think that’s what he’s showing in his bag of goodies, that’s what he wants to do, Travis and others are in on this. We've got to learn more to switch tracks, to facilitate that and the fear behind not doing that is that you won’t be able to get back on the right track or back to where we were. It could be taking us on a wild goose chase but there’s a controller of that switching mechanism. That’s having the trust in the spirit help we have to help us to get the connection and stay on that track for as long as it takes and then switch us back. Ha, ha, he’s giving us a Cadburys milk chocolate as a little treat, it’s like when you give dogs treats for performing tricks correctly, it’s his reward. He’s putting me in a silver chair, got that silver again, there’s silver behind all of this. Maybe it’s our spirit group, I'm seeing tree tops, maybe it’s time to say goodbye now’

‘Got the word Villiers, and he’s left me with that. And now a tractor’

I associate Villiers with old engines. When I was younger dad used to take me to vintage transport fairs where we would see Villiers tractors and stationary engines.

Liz thanked everyone for coming and did the closing, sending out healing and our closing down exercise...