209th Sitting 25/10/2019

We had the room setup as usual and Liz was wired up to the Mind Mirror EEG.

I did the opening prayer at 7.50pm, turned out the light and put the music on.

I felt a fuzzy touch on the top of my head during the opening prayer and this continued on and off during the session.

We did the Rainbow Bridge Exercise then continued on into the session...

After about 25 minutes Liz reported seeing eyes looking at her then after another 15 minutes started to speak...

‘I got this strong impression of grey like a velour fabric and I've just been holding on to it, feel the connection with Grey Wolf and another grey who is with me. I feel the connection in this sense because the grey came through with a feminine, a sense of a female presence, but I think what I am wanting to say... the male and the female are one, two parts of a pod, two parts of a psyche separating out into the different genders, they are united peas in a pod. At the higher levels differentiation doesn't exist in the same way, the whole being incorporates both, it’s gender neutral in the sense that the male and the female don’t separate out they are part and parcel of the same being in which all those fragments are united, one whole and this is the significance of the right and the left brain two different ways of being in the world, two different perspectives. At a higher level they come together into the one, the holographic image, every part contains the whole. This polarisation in the physical world is a fabrication of the divided self by the way the incarnating spirit decided to differentiate, a fabrication allowing a particular form of generation, an idea for the creative production of further beings. One pathway chosen excessively and leading to an entrapment in two identities differentiated for the purpose of generation but an artifice, an artifice of the creative mind but leading to entrapment because of the limitation and the developing brain. When the function of the brain predominates and this way of viewing the world, this way of creating identity leads to dysfunction and consciousness lies beyond the brain for it is only a mediator but the conscious life becomes entrapped in the being that is functioning purely from the chemistry of the brain and losing touch with the whole of its conscious being. This leads to great battles and wars and dissonance between the sexes and within the individual, embattlement, leading to the many fairy tales, the many fantasies, the many stories, the many archetypal tales, Grimm’s fairy tales, the sleeping beauty, the witches, the crones, the giants, the wizards, the wicked witches, the star children, the demonic deformed males, Rumpelstiltskin, the frog prince, all aspects of the human psyche in one male or female predominant role, these fantastic figures play out, act out from the historical, political planes within the social framework, they externalise into human society, into the terrible and transgressive models that predominate in human society and discriminate unfairly and empower one sex over another and create tyranny until these errors in the human psyche are corrected. Until consciousness within each human expands to beyond these confines there will be no healing of human society. These errors in thinking, defining self, stand in the way of integration, stand in the way of evolving the evolution of the individual, stand in the way of the evolution of human society, the civilisation. The present civilisation is based on a false apprehension of the human self, it has to be understood that the body, the physical body is borrowed from the earth, nothing on the physical plane belongs to the individual entity, it’s all transitory, passing, the consciousness incorporates and goes beyond and the phenomena of the physical world like dreams or illusions dissolve, including the human body, including the human misapprehending identity. The true being, the soul, consciousness goes way beyond. The opportunity to access this totality is given moment by moment but bypassed and at death this opportunity opens up but is most often bypassed, familiarity with the totality of being has to be cultivated, has to be reconnected with here and now in order to be secured, in order to be stabilised with the totality of our conscious being to stabilise in full consciousness requires the exercise of attention, requires the exercise of patient persistence because the habit of self-deception and the illusory nature of false identity has predominated for so long and with such consensus but only an act of will or an act of grace can liberate the human being from the falsehood of gender identity. Great mystics and saints spoke of our mother-father God and our sweet mother Jesus because they recognised that the totality of being contained both male and female, beyond archetypes, containing all archetypes but beyond the beyond. Grey Wolf shows me the vastness of heaven, the vastness of the psyche that goes beyond, the great wild spaces for exploration, for being. True love goes beyond the male or female, goes beyond attachment to the human form. Great love lies in the realms of great consciousness, the ultimate creative act in which the one divides to become two. This mystery is beyond human conception and the posing of it in binary form, again is the manipulation of the human psyche, the binary brain, an attempt to comprehend, but is as yet incomprehensible to the divided brain. For those grappling with truth it may often have to be taken on faith but the many are one and the one is the many’

‘I have the image of a can of worms and the picture of a fisherman. He uses the can of worms to catch the fish. I feel I have opened a can of worms’

‘Somebody’s repeating again that many are called, few are chosen’

‘It has to be noted in the evolutionary principle that there is often overproduction. We notice it in the generation of seed, in the surplus DNA, the genetic medium, an overproduction of base pairs, surplus material. We call this hedging our bets. There is purpose in this design, it is a natural outcome of chaos which allows that flexibility to be creative, to develop, to adapt, to change, to evolve. An element of randomness, of random generation is inherent in the evolutionary design principle in which we operate, the probability window, the plasticity of consciousness. Every nook and cranny is filled, is tested, developed in the fullness of time. There will come a time when the fully developed human will be a true creator in turn, when true knowledge will supersede understanding then you will stand over and not under creation, until such a time you will continue in the fallacy of the differentiation of the sexes and the divided brain... thank you for listening’

‘Lupus, lupus, lupus, is that the name for wolf?’

Long pause...

‘I was just asking for a message for you Nick and someone came and wanted to put a school scarf round your neck, I tried to see what colour it was and it seemed like it was an orangy yellow and red stripes and a school cap, then the same person wanted to put some slippers on your feet and they were like fluffy ducks, ha, ha... I don’t know if it was your grandmother but it was somebody who wanted to look after you... as if you were still a school boy’

Me... ‘I did get an image of my mum earlier on, could have been her possibly?

‘Yes, perhaps she was there, it felt like a nurturing presence, wanted to wrap you up...’

Liz now felt back with it.

We recalled our Rainbow Bridge Exercise...

Liz started off with tulips, a Dutch connection. It was a muddy area with a red brick wall and took Liz to a river bank. Across the river was a wonderful landscape, trees, shrubs and hills that went on and on, expansive, something to explore. Liz wanted to get over there and saw a silver metal bridge that turned into a rainbow but she knew she could fly across and turned into a brown speckled bird like a hawk or owl. She flew over the landscape, on and on, a wonderful sense of freedom. Then she came to a place that connected her with men that had passed over, she felt their powerful presence, many men that had been in her life and had loved but some of them hadn’t known Liz completely as she was and it felt like it was an acceptance now. They were in a circle and beyond that Liz was drawn to the women in her life that had passed over. There was a particular woman she didn’t know who seemed to be from a fairy tale and she led Liz to a castle where she was shown fairy tales in which women have appeared and men have appeared, those two archetypes, the male and the female, situations like when the woman is locked in a tower and the man has to climb up by her hair and the wicked step mothers and the sleeping beauty who was awaken by a prince. Liz was taken to a castle like an astronomer's tower or a lighthouse with a diamond multifaceted light that contained all the rainbow colours, all the facets, like a hologram where the whole is there but every part of it contains the image of the whole. Looking out over this landscape Liz could see the overview, she saw everything all contained in the one, she saw all the parts and acknowledged them but at the same time could see they were all parts of the one. This was where Liz wanted to stay, this point of true seeing where you see many in the one and the one in many...

I started off seeing a red door so opened it and went through. I found myself going down a spiral staircase. It was very dark at first then lightened up and I saw I was in a giant glass test tube making my way to the bottom on this glass spiral staircase. I tried to see out and saw I was in a huge laboratory and was being held by a mad professor who looked like Einstein. He said how did you get in there? And I told him about the red door. Then he asked did I close the door behind me? And I told him I'd left it open. He didn’t seem very pleased and said he needed to do some experiments then poured some liquid into the test tube. I thought I was going to drown but the liquid was like a cool mist. Then he lit a Bunsen Burner and held the test tube in the flame. I thought I was going to be burned alive but again it felt OK just a bit warm. Suddenly I found myself outside the test tube with the professor who was now the same size as me. He asked me what had I learnt from this experience? I said I'd learnt not to go through red doors and he said no you haven’t, what you have learnt is when you are exploring and see something like a door you should always go through it and know that you will never get hurt however scary things may look while you are in other realities because you are not part of that reality, you are just exploring and experiencing it and can always go back to your physical reality. It’s always good to explore and to learn new things wherever you are so if you see a door or a portal go through it and engage with all that you discover with no fear...

I then did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...

208th Sitting 17/10/2019

We had the room setup as usual and Liz was wired to the Mind Mirror EEG.

I did the opening prayer at 7.55pm, turned out the light and put the music on...

We did the Rainbow Bridge Exercise and then continued on into the session.

I experienced a few light touches during the session.

About 20 minutes after the opening prayer Liz began to speak...

‘I have a feeling I have Grey Wolf with me, I can feel his claws in my hands. Grey Wolf is overshadowing me’

Me... ‘He’s very welcome...’

‘Covers vast territory, keeps in touch with the vastness, it’s that sense of perspective, seeing the larger picture, the woods, the trees... He’s saying we’re lost in the morass, the everyday... go for the blue sky, go for the wilderness, go for the vast space, get in touch with that... He’s grappling around, reminding me of how he grappled, the thorny problems, knots... being forced to face the great night sky with the stars, the vast wilderness of snow, forest, ice mountains, released in the morass. The insignificant mental toil that so absorbs the human mind, the stories, the justifications, the intrigue. Howling the wolves, howling my song to the stars, to the moon. My whole heart sings and this is a different noise... the song of the heart, feeling, centring that song. There is your lifeline, the lifeline that takes you to where you belong, to your meaning, to your soul’s purpose in this life beyond the story telling and trivia. When you howl to the moon and sing your song you listen for the echo, the reverberation. The heavens sing back to you. You join in cacophony, laughing with all of creation, not alone, never alone though alone. The loneliness is what we feel but the loneliness brings you to your community and belonging, the choir of creation, the whole heart, the healing of the heart. Mine was a wounded heart, my heart burst and only then did my heart learn to sing... I learnt the meaning of forgiveness; I learnt the meaning of atonement and atunement. I could acknowledge my transgressions without self-loathing, I could see the larger framework, the whole field in which my journey began and continues still. No obligation to finish or end, just a continuing journey full of wild joy...’

‘I can feel my Auntie Sophie...’

Liz was feeling cold.

‘I had the name Richard...’

‘I seem to be in a dream with lots of people, different people, faces...’

Me... ‘Anybody you recognise?’

‘No...’

‘Somebody’s telling me he’s annoyed; he would have changed the date for his appointment if he’d known... he says... would have done something different if I’d have known...’

The music CD ended.

‘I feel this creeping feeling over my hair... strong electrical feeling, top of my head...’ 

‘Sense of a tortoise, a turtle...’

‘I was going into a dream then, someone wanted to pull a curtain across, felt like somebody in a hospital bed’

‘Got an image of a wheelbarrow, somebody in an allotment’

‘Somebody coming through on a unique radio band, loud and clear... getting a sense of wind generators... alternative technology... seeing tectonic plates, explosions, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions... they’re saying it’s not too late, someone’s trying to hold on to the larger picture... Got Grey Wolf again... not too late’

‘Seem to be some army types, air force... a fish’s tail, amphibian, amphibian vehicle, sea serpent...’

‘I was concerned, wondering if I should hold on to the woods and I sense there’s a larger picture, to hold on to it, be patient, there’s a reason for it’

‘Experiencing a bit of pain in my left thigh...’

‘Cleverly disguising the true origin of what’s being said... I'm asking why?... too controversial... bellicose being, bellicose...’

Liz kept yawning.

‘I think I’ll say goodbye to everyone, it’s too slow’

‘Got the name Terence Rattigan’ 

We thanked everybody for coming and I noticed the room then went very dark.

We recalled our Rainbow Bridge Exercises...

Liz started off walking in silver sand going towards a hot air balloon. Somebody helped her in and encouraged her to throw out all the ballast as it rose up in the air and into the stars. The ballast was all Liz’s current concerns. The balloon landed on green grass and Liz was watching all sorts of people going past, different people all doing the best they could with what they had. Liz was being told that we all have our imperfections and blemishes but we’re all doing the best we can and that we have to learn to accept and not to judge one another but to encourage them...

I was floating in mist and my hands were held by two people either side of me. As the mist cleared, I saw that I was part of a huge circle of people looking like silhouettes all linking hands. I noticed the people were merging into one another as the circle got smaller and finally the two people either side of me merged into me. I was now standing on a mountain looking down on a busy city. There were thousands of cars and people rushing around which seemed such a contrast to me on this mountain in the clean air on my own and the crowds of people in all those car fumes rushing around trying to make a living. I wondered why they did this every day and realised they were all living with fear and believed they had to work like this to look after themselves and survive whereas if they lived with love they could care for one another and share with each other and everybody would benefit...

I then did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...

207th Sitting 10/10/2019

We had the room setup as usual. Liz wasn’t wired to the Mind Mirror EEG but we had the Magnetometer working.

I did the opening prayer at 7.35pm, turned out the light and put the music on.

We did the Rainbow Bridge Exercise then continued on into the session...

I felt light touches on my right hand, then a pressure on my palm and it later felt like my hand was gently squeezed.

I felt a pressure on my left arm near the elbow.

I suddenly felt very cold from the waist up.

Liz was getting hot and then getting cold.
She was feeling her mum and dad around.

Liz was in and out of sleep for about one hour then began to talk...

‘I’m seeing a bird, pink and blue, a small bird. It's identifying itself; I think it’s just showing me that birds have meaning, they inhabit the spaces in our consciousness, between the worlds, they bridge two worlds, a multiverse. I asked how it can be true that the dead can appear sometimes in the form of birds... they can project their consciousness into the small apparatus, a virtual bird. It's a well-known trick in the Shamanic world for a dreamer to move his consciousness into a bird form’

‘I sensed... connecting with the magnetometer...’

‘You are not to dismiss these signs that come to us from the other world into this world, fleeting though they may be, it behoves us to credit them with a meaning, a meaning unique to our self. Colours are also important; colours indicate our connection where in our consciousness they lodge these birds. Hold on to these fleeting symbols that vanish almost with the rapidity of dream disappearance but don’t get too hooked up on them, let them speak to you, listen and hold them in that reservoir of mind space, allowing them to connect you with your own significant experience, memories. Hold their significance in a special place in your mind, they are not to act on, they are not to believe or disbelieve, their importance is for you uniquely and they connect you with the numinous worlds, the internal worlds. They project into the outer world of the physical to remind you, they are reminders of your connectiveness with those other episodes, those other vibrational levels in you. They are not intended to influence your pathways in the physical world, your choices, your experiences, they are merely resonances that help you to connect with your own larger consciousness and those in spirit who are close to you. They want to remind you of their closeness of their continued presence in your life, in your manifold lives’

‘I have Candace Pert who I think wrote the book Molecules of Emotion... The connection with the birds is the importance of the emotions in our quality of being and that birds have an uplifting effect often on our emotional state and that those in spirit who love us and are connected with us and wish to uplift us, bring us happiness, lift our mood, bring us joy, impinge on our emotions, may choose to manifest in the form of a bird who captures our attention by imposing their presence on us in a physical world in a seemingly meaningful way. This is a natural way for our dear ones in spirit to try and raise our spirits, to bring us happiness, to convey their care for us. The bonds of love survive multiple lifetimes, multiple experiences in the Earth plane, they continue through many dimensions, they are part of our orchestral being and it’s natural that those bonds of love should be twanged to resonate, keeping us tuned in to our greater reality, our greater community of loving beings and love. Love is in a bunch of flowers, love is in a bird, love is where you look for it, those beautiful things that capture your attention, twang those resonant threads and bonds of love that glue you in the matrix of being that connects you to your totality’

‘Glory be to dappled things as the poet Gerard Manley Hopkins wrote, for a thatch is the Kingdom of Heaven made and our life on Earth is also the Kingdom of Heaven’

‘I’ve got the name John Le Mesurier, and mellitot... an image of daisies... get a strong sense my dad is there’

‘I’ve got a strong sense of the cross, reaching up, the vertical connecting us to our Heaven and our Earth and the horizontal reaching out of that energy, that healing into the world, those two directions, that cross of light is an important stabilising symbol to connect with, a light from Heaven down through our crown centre right down through our legs and feet into the Earth and then the horizontal bit of that energy in us then reaching out through our arms spread either side, extending out into the world, that light then breathes out into the world. Breathe in, draw that light from the Heaven down, down into the ground through our feet, we breathe out extending our arms out the side like a bird, that light spreads out at the left and right equally. Perfect balance of energies. In-breath you draw the vertical, out-breath the horizontal. On that symbol of the cross we should end...’

Liz was now feeling back with it.

We recalled our Rainbow Bridge Exercise...

Liz started off walking in beautiful soft, powdery sand, so soft that her footsteps filled up again as she walked. She was walking towards a familiar sea with islands in it and felt there was a person either side of her, she felt it was her mum and dad. There was a large boat like a galleon and Liz’s mum and dad were leading her up a wide gang plank. The boat now looked more like an ocean liner and seemed empty. They set off in it and found themselves at Arran looking at Holy Island. This was where Liz was conceived and her mum and dad were very happy there, it was a place that connected them all. Liz stretched over to Holy Island and the cave with her mum and dad. There was great significance with this as Liz felt they had all had a lifetime that connected them with that cave. Liz saw a coin with a Roman head on it and there was a connection with a spring, with water, she remembered there was a healing spring by the cave. She had slept in the cave and had dreamt about looking for it. Liz felt that in the spiritual life her mum and dad could now see the bigger picture and appreciated her direction and wanted to help now...

I was sitting in the séance room and noticed a kind of mist coming into the room through the walls, floor and ceiling. Within this mist I could see glimpses of people, I saw arms coming through the walls and shapes like people walking round the room. The glass dome in the centre of the room started glowing, lighting up the room and the people formed a circle around it, linking hands and seemed to dance round it. I noticed I had risen above them and was viewing all this from the ceiling. I looked towards where Liz sat and saw changing coloured lights coming from her, blues, purples and greens. I stayed there watching this for a while then sunk back down into my chair...

I did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...