198th Sitting 27/06/2019

We had the room setup as usual and used the Magnetometer but not the Mind Mirror.

I did the opening prayer at 7.35pm, turned out the light and put the music on...

We started with the Rainbow Bridge Exercise then continued on into the session...

After about 15 minutes Liz began to speak...

‘I have John Harbottle here, washing out my head with a bottle brush, he was a technical officer, he had bad arthritis... got a sense of spiders, cobwebs... savouring freedom... sense of a lion... Savanna, South Africa... getting the message of a new broom, sweep clean, cleaning the slate of everything, a new start, all wiped clean, all the cobwebs gone... sensing that freedom, getting the original roaring lion, Savanna, surveying vast territory, unbridled freedom, face the sun, the blaze... We shy away from the light, we are like creatures of darkness like the spiders building their webs in the corners, the dark corners, in the crevasses, afraid to look at too much light... now I see the unlimited, I see the light, not afraid to look now... I was John, I am John... but in some sense John is gone...’

‘Lesley Carson... talking about craving... incandescent, consumed, totally coloured and colour-blind, preposterous, presumptions... the confusion... very slow to heal, very slow like coming out of a treacle bath, still all sticky and just wanting to be washed clean of all the attachments, all the cravings sticking to me like glue... far reaching effects, you take them with you... snake slithering around, slipping in and out... far easier to deal with these when they are physical... settling, settling down, healing takes time, takes confession... if I don’t know that I am sick I just carry on, you have to want to be healed... while you are caught in the glue it’s very hard to come unstuck... but here I can just lie in the rain and let it wash it all away... in a sense dying is like the scissors that cut away all the... cuts you out of the gloom, cuts you out of the sticky bonds, the attachments, severed suddenly, it’s difficult at first, unfamiliar, like phantom limbs. If you have an amputation, but you still feel the leg, even when it’s not there, when the bonds are cut, even when they are cut and not there you can still feel the pull so I have to keep remembering that it’s phantom bonds now, I've been cut from them, there’s no physical state in these now, substance abuse... but as I lie in the rain and the rain washes me clean... it takes a lot of lying in the rain, a lot of realisation that I've been cut free. You see, the attachments became so much the norm, normalised, you don’t realise it’s a sickness, you don’t realise the drain in your energy, draining the life from you, consuming. So even when you’re cut free the emotional pull of them still like the phantom limb, but they’re helping me now, I do know I need the healing... to be washed clean, to be undressed of the world, to shed those remnants, those rags, to be well ridden, good riddance, I can say that now’

‘All healing is a form of dying, it’s a form of letting go the attachment to the sickness but it has become a habit, habit of spirit, habit of mind, habit of body... I craved so many things, fashion, publicity, fame, success, money, flowers, even solitude. I'm being cured of the craving, the craving that binds, that fetters, spiders' webs of the mind. I'm like a spider caught in my own trap, caught in my own web, become my own sticky food parcel, I've been eating myself... kick the habits, kick the habits of mind, kick the habits of craving so you can go free. My healing was forced on me by death... in the rain being washed of the sticky remains I can see how I could have done it while I was still in the old body if I wanted to and part of healing is the desire to heal and that’s taken a while to come and sometimes the desire to heal only comes with intense suffering because we’re afraid to heal, to let go, afraid to let go of the sticky attachment because that’s what keeps us going, that’s what fills the gap, that’s what creates the matrix, the physical reality in which we dwell, without it we think we’re lost, we’re afraid of falling into a vacuum, a pit within reality and that’s just an illusion, that is just a trap, a snare and the healing can only come when you let go of the fear, when you stop being afraid to let go and it took me dying, enforced letting go, it was like cut out of the web but the phantom limb, the memory of the web continued until my desire to heal became stronger than the fear of the loss of the phantom web. I realised it was a phantom, insubstantial because I knew there was no physical satisfaction anymore, I'd lost, there was no point in the fear, I gave up the fear and then the desire for healing began to form and the healers came and they surrounded me with beauty and the rain that washes me clean now I surrendered to the healing, I allow the healing and it takes time but you can do it now without the actual dying if you let go of the fear of letting go. Bit of a catch 22 to let go of the fear of letting go, ask for help. If you truly ask for help the help will come in the fullness of time’

‘I’ve got Gracie Fields... they’re all lending their support, we support one another, that’s what they’re saying. We’re all addicts in one way or another, that’s what they’re saying, great tolerance’

‘I’m asking what is the secret of healing and I'm told the secret of healing is the desire to heal and be healed, to be made whole, to be the whole of what you are, to make whole again and behind that is the healing of the hole, the H-O-L-E, that your separation from the whole, the W-H-O-L-E, has created. We talk of holism, of holistic healing. Holistic healing is the healing of the hole in the whole. Ask and you will receive, give and it will be given back to you in abundance, that is the teaching, that was the teaching of the master healer’

The music CD ended.

‘I have with me a Rabbi or a learned man with a beard’

‘Thank you... we’re in the presence of great teachers... thank you all... Sefira, he who’s face shines like the sun, and dear Leslie Carson, thank you... and my friend Mary Whitehead and John thank you all’

We recalled our Rainbow Bridge Exercises...

Liz got Iris again, she came with the flower iris and was leading Liz to the one who’s face shines like the sun, this being of light, the great light...

I started off being wrapped in a soft blanket and placed in a pram then pushed down a busy street full of people rushing around. I had the sense that I wasn’t really there, the pram seemed real but the street didn’t. Then I was going downhill getting faster and faster, out of control. It felt like a roller-coaster and as I thought that I found I was on a roller-coaster going up and down and round then through some water which made me think of a power boat and then I was on the sea in a power boat heading towards an island. The boat went up onto the sand and stopped. Suddenly everything went quiet and I got out the boat and sat on a rock. I just sat there enjoying the quiet knowing that I could go back if I wanted to by just thinking about it...

Then I did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise.

I noticed a lot of bright light when doing the healing and Liz thought there were a lot of healers with us...

197th Sitting 13/06/2019

We had the room setup as usual.

Liz decide not to use the Mind Mirror EEG this week but we still had the Magnetometer working as usual outside the seance room.

I did the opening prayer at 7.35pm, turned out the light and put the music on.

We did the Rainbow Bridge exercise then continued on into the session...

After 20 minutes Liz began to speak...

‘I’m feeling this presence with me... Naomi... It’s a very gentle feminine presence, she brings with her the memory of a grand piano, piano playing, dancing, very gentle feminine energy. But I have a sense she was blown up by a bomb, but her whole experiences of the feminine... she showed me a white shawl made of cream coloured silk, just a large white shawl, could have been like a head scarf... slim, very light... I see her like a shepherdess... she’s showing a line of cars, travelling with a convoy, nose to tail... she’s telling me there are schools now, places of learning, she’s teaching, she’s learning, going on a long journey... it’s quite beautiful, it’s like she can create whatever she wants, like lavender fields, it’s like she loves the creative arts, beautiful patterns, pictures... she’s talking about being sensitive to the needs of others... soft cushions... she’s trying to convey a sense of exquisite embroidery, the delicate nature of these arts and crafts, the delicate beauty of the perfection, the colours, the texture, all these wonderful facets of crafts to delight, they are the expression of a desire to bring beauty, to bring that spiritual beauty into the physical environment, into the environment of the home and the inhabited spaces in which we live, to grace them with the expressions of the inner seeing of the spiritual realms, the colours and the light and they are all art when it is a genuine expression of inspired spirit, the memory, the inner seeing, it’s a gift to help to stimulate the memory, the remembrance, the attunement to spirit. True art is shining with that light, a special subtle flavour, a taste of spirit. Divas, earth spirits have created the wonderful manifestations on the Earth plane, the flowers, the trees, the insects, the animals, the creatures, all exquisite, wonderful creations and for the human creations are as yet limited but they are the artistic creations of music, of theatre, of dance, of art, painting, sculpture, the crafts, the weaving, the sowing, the embroidery, the patterning, the decorating, the inventions, the architecture, the buildings, the furnishings, the gardens, the toys, all these, creations of the human mind and imagination are imbued with spirit. Now the beginning of the human being, learning to create, developing that ability to manifest. The humans are a manifestation of the creative power and as manifestations they too can manifest creation and as they grow in strength and wisdom and power, they too can become creators. The creative aspect permeates all manifestation and like an echo it continues, rebounds, getting weaker and weaker until the new impulse sounds again. Creation does not stop with the created but the created become creators, creation continues and continues to its endless permutations. We find ourselves like magicians with the magic wand practising creation but it’s only with the refinement of spirit that the finest creations can occur. You can turn from the very bold strident dominant creations imbued with power with the more delicate subtle intricate creations that have their own intents, intern power. These two different types of creations operate in much the way of the male and female, both are essential in the building blocks of life, where you see the great icebergs with their magnificent structure, form and shape like mountains but within the structure, the delicate crystalline formations such as you get in snowflakes, both are intricately involved in manifestation, both have their part to play. So, the female form and the female mind and way in creation is different and essential to the male way with its more powerful and dominant and outward display' 

'I Naomi celebrate the feminine but I recognise the beauty and the power of the masculine, and I celebrate the difference and enjoy the difference. I enjoy and embrace the feminine but respect the right of the male to enjoy and embrace the masculine. Both polarities have been woven into the manifestations of the physical world and both are intricately intertwined in each and every portion of the manifestations but just as the tree bears male and female so the whole of life manifests in proportion of male and female. This balance of the male and female manifests in the human consciousness, in the human form of the brain, the right and left sidedness of the brain so within each human is that capacity for a predominance of male and female. But though one proclivity may dominate, both aspects must be treasured, expressed and nurtured because to express and nurture within the one organism the two proclivities of the male and female this enables the respect and the understanding for the dominance of one form or the other in each individual, so a female can best understand a male by experiencing within herself that male component of the psyche and similarly the male can best understand the female by recognising within himself the feminine proclivity within his own psyche, so although the mental mechanism of the male may be dominant as male, the presence of the female within him allowing the expression and the sense of that will enable him to understand and respect the feminine in the female in whom feminine expression is dominant. When this becomes true for all human beings there will no longer be the inequality between the sexes, there will no longer be conflict between the sexes, there will be cooperation and heightened creativity and a far deeper spirituality in humanity in general. The mother-father god that is spoken of by mystics is a reality not to be ignored for the creator is a mother-father god and the true human will only become creator when the mother-father god is manifest in each and every one’

‘I Naomi, operating in the feminine principle have been blown up by bombs from a masculine force that was out of balance in the world at present. I celebrate the feminine and I urge the masculine to also celebrate the feminine, so there will be no more bombs, no more killing fields and the principle of the masculine will be transmuted from the blood bath of the stags fighting to the building of heaven on earth, to the building of temples, to the building of living things, to creation and the feminine principle will embrace this transmutation waving the wonderful white flag of peace and truth and surrender’

‘I have shone the mirror on my life and recognised how many incarnations I have had as male and female and the powerful lessons of the immaturity of those forms in me has begun to mature so my understanding has grown. We all have learned through millennia, through multitudinous lives, in one form or another of male and female, we have learned to begin to transcend from the animal form that dominates in us, in the physical memories of our DNA of our brain stem, we have learned to transmute, to transform, to transpose’

‘James Kicoldy... coming from the churches... the animals still manifested, the primeval forms still dominated the spirituality, latent within those structures but a new age is upon us so the form of the churches must change for the old spirituality dominated by the animal forces has to be surpassed. The churches have acted like rampant roe deer bucks, like dinosaurs, like walruses dominating, waring, fighting, claiming territory and that is the old animal way, and that is not the refined spirituality that was essential in the teaching of the masters and the saints, that is the corrupted version spelled out by the priests and teachers who did not have the refined understanding of the evolved human but were operating still from the animal which they projected on a demonic form called the devil. And the old religions are being replaced by a new spirituality and that is informed by the higher principles and in part is mediated by the deeper understanding of the male and the female elements in our psyche’

The music CD ended.

‘Ah, feel as if there’s many nuns and priests around me, they are all intoning to the mother-father god as if that breath is being breathed out over the world, a new understanding’

‘Thank you to Naomi and Iris who was there and Peter and James Kicoldy’

I played a tune to help Liz feel back with it.

Liz felt there was somebody overshadowing her quite strongly towards the later part of the communications. She felt a tingling over her head.

Liz thought Naomi could be someone she knew in Israel many years ago.

We recalled our Rainbow Bridge exercises...

Liz started off walking through large banks of irises towards an enormous river, fast flowing and wide. A long rainbow bridge spanned it and Liz began walking across reaching out to spirit, allowing them to come towards her. She became aware of a girl in a long dress who looked like her and Liz identified with her, a lovely feminine presence. She was dancing and had a beautiful shawl she had made and led Liz to a woodland where there were many more women and stags with antlers. Liz thought they might be men dressed up as stags, she couldn’t make head or tail of it. The women seemed to be very at ease with this space and had an incredible connection with nature. The stags we dancing and intertwining with the women, it was if it was a celebration of each other. Then Liz was aware of everybody in a separate rainbow bubble and they were all different, they were all dancing and creating within their own bubble but interconnected somehow. They were sharing the same world but each seeing it differently, creating it differently...

I started off walking down a tunnel like a mining tunnel with light bulbs hanging off wires. Then I saw a lady’s face, it was black and white like an actress in an old movie, she had blond curly hair. The mining tunnel was still there and it was as if I was swaying between the two images. Both images then disappeared and I was aware of curtains on a stage opening and the stage was full of white light and at the same time I saw black witches flying around on broom sticks in the dark then all that disappeared and I was a postman walking up a path to a house. I started posting letters through the door, some were black and some white and it felt like the house was eating the letters and I had to keep feeding it. Then I heard people talking and laughing behind the door so I opened it and saw Liz with her friend who had two babies in her arms which is what I saw when I had entered Liz’s house earlier...

I then did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...

196th Sitting 06/06/2019

We had the room setup as usual and Liz was wired up to the Mind Mirror EEG.

I did the opening prayer at 7.55pm, turned out the light and put the music on.

We started with the Rainbow Bridge Exercise then continued on into the session...

After about ten minutes Liz began...

‘I have the name Iris again; she often seems to come... and Susanne...’

‘Have this feeling of a large amphibious creature like a frog looking at me, big frog eyes... I had the sense of being a deep-sea diver with the idea you have to plumb the depths before you can rise to the heights, you have to be able to swim deep into the lava less but also murky waters, the unconscious, and that will be necessary to be able to retrieve the baggage, all those impediments, all the blockages, all the debris, the weights, that you need to discharge, that you need to unload, that you need to acknowledge but let go of like old clutter, old luggage you no longer need in order to be able to rise up, to rise up through the waters into the clear air, into the universe, into the higher levels, higher vibrational levels of consciousness, that that is the work to be done in order to be able to engage completely with the higher spiritual realms. Being Earth bound means more than having your feet on the ground, your body always has its feet on the ground, you always have that Earth connection as long as you are in your physical body but for the consciousness to be able to leave the body, to be able to soar and reunite with its larger aspects, those patterns and habits that have been created into the mental body which is a non-physical aspect over millennia of incarnations hold that mental body to the memories in the Earth plane, to many negativities, to many fears, to many traumas deeply buried, hidden but still holding, chaining you to a limited mental set. To be free, to expand, to rise beyond limitation it is necessary to plumb the depths, to open those psychic stores of trauma to acknowledge, to recognise those fetters, invisible fetters that are holding your mental body back. These latent memories lurk in the shadows and like bruises create the pain, tension, depression and negative thoughts, doubts, lack of confidence, fear that overshadows you regularly for no apparent reason but they are triggered by the environment by occurrences in the current life story that trigger these old wounds which have not really been properly discharged’

Me... ‘How can we discharge these old wounds?’

‘This is the deep work of spiritual psychoanalysis which is a rare occupation nowadays can help but you yourself can work with this and by monitoring your dreams, by asking for your deep inner psyche through dreams, through lucid dreaming, through imagination, through journeying, asking to expose, to reveal those burdens that you need to discharge, those areas of holding, bring them to the light. For some it is safer to work with another, to work with a teacher, to work with a spiritual friend but for some who are well grounded and balanced within this life framework and emotionally stable, it is possible to work on one's own, recording, writing, reenacting, there are many methods using psychodrama to reenact your dreams, to reenact your imaginary experiences or fantasies, exploring, becoming more aware of incidences that trigger negative emotional responses, that trigger mood changes, mood swings, not distracting yourself from this but viewing it, observing it like a scientist might. What you are viewing and observing is fleeting emotional states that can give a clue to buried trauma, to buried patterns, holding patterns that hold your mind in fetters preventing it from flowing freely into the field of all probabilities, all possibilities into the open-ended field of infinite possibility. If you hold firm to that desire to be free, to be truly free, to reach your true home, your full nature, that will give you the courage to honestly explore these difficult areas, these clouds that you would rather brush aside but the work needs patience because too much inner exploration, too much introversion can also be a fetter and a bind because your true nature needs to delight, needs to appreciate, needs to enjoy the beauty and the wonderful opportunity of this incredible creative physical reality, a unique and wonderful opportunity to engage with so it is also important to be present in the physical reality in which you have been incarnated and to have plenty of moments of happy relaxed tranquil appreciation of the beauty, of the wonder. So balance is essential in this journey of spiritual growth and inner exploration and to remember always that you are a spiritual being in a temporary physical body and you are in that physical body for a reason and part of that reason is to enjoy as well as learn because learning without enjoyment, without joy becomes duress, stress and a chore. True learning is a delight, it is not difficult, it is a slow and steady assent, so be measured, be easy on yourself, imagine you have all the time in the world knowing at the same time that your life, this opportunity in the world could be taken from you by chance at any time. So, delight in it every day because every day could be your last day but also know that you have the infinite possibilities of continuing, of returning, so hold both perspectives of infinite time and now is the only time. To live with paradox in this physical world is the sign of the master’

‘I had a name just before, Dagda...’

‘Just kept getting the word sad... and I felt like I was blind’

‘I’ve got Brenda... knitting... almost like seeing a shell, the skin of a pumpkin or butternut squash, hard shiny skin... showing me piano keys, not very clear, maybe trying to play the piano, she’s in charge of sweets, stiffness in her fingers... cats, don’t know if they’re real cats or soft toys... now I have Sheila, wants to say sorry to Sheila... it’s almost like a village hall, want to engage with village life... not sure if I'm in a wheelchair’

‘Muddy Waters... is that the name of a person?’

Me... ‘Yes it is’

‘Was he a jazz musician?’

Me... ‘No blues I think’

‘Got a lot of green around me... feel as if I want to blow a trumpet to awaken the dead, rise up out of the slumber, shake off the slime, the old pond weed. You can cry out for a trumpet or saxophone, you can really cry... I feel as if I still want to cry out that old tune, I want to wake people up out of their slumber, I want to shake their souls... it’s like I'm still crazy with grief for being buried in the dark, blind, spiritually blind... it’s like I'm rising out of the slime, out of the muddy waters, becoming something, want to shake off, wanna bathe in the clear water, let that soul be renewed like a new born baby, shining... I feel like I gotta heavy cloak weighing me down but I can rise up out of it and that’s what I want to say, it’s like I'm a monster in the deep but I can rise up like the Loch Ness monster and then I can... (Liz sneezed) all that weed got caught in my breathing apparatus, smoked too much, drank too much, breathed in a lotta bad stuff, gotta get it out of the system but it’s a wonderful feeling to rise up out of it, so I say blow the trumpet, raise the dead from their slumber, the living dead, stuck in the mire, shake it all up baby, shake it all up, shake it all off, sneeze it out of the system, and I'm still waiting to transform. Now I don’t know what I'm going to become but I'm waiting to be touched by the hand of the healer and my soul will be saved’

The music CD ended.

I got an image of a large heavy door opening to the right of Liz, then a strong wind coming through it into the room, spinning round it a few times then going back out of the door which then shut.

‘I feel like I've changed my coat, that green slime for a rainbow coat, coat of many colours, now my transformation into a rainbow being and I can fly... well thank you, I’m seeing a face here, I'll have to check it out, I want to hug this person, a good man, blessings...’

Liz felt back with it.

We then recalled our Rainbow Bridge Exercises...

Liz started walking along a path with a brick wall and tulips, all different colours. Then coming towards her was Max Cade in a tweed jacket who had developed the Mind Mirror EEG. Max was delighted and hugged Liz giving her encouragement. He invited Liz into a hot air balloon and as they went up got Liz to throw out the sand bags sending them higher and higher. He knew Liz was questioning how will they get back down to Earth and he told her she didn’t need to worry as her physical body was always attached to the Earth because it was an Earth body but this was the spiritual body that needed to rise up and in order to rise up you needed to get rid of all the Earth links, the weight, the burdens of the Earth they had to be thrown over because keeping them was holding you down. Max knew that Liz wanted to rise to the heights and told her she could do that, she just needed to throw all these weights out and she didn’t need to be afraid because her physical body was still planted in the Earth, this was just a spirit body that was letting go...

I started off sitting in the room and becoming aware of a strong wind circling round and could see a vortex in the middle of the room. It seemed to go up forever and I decided to take off leaving my physical body in the chair as I wanted to see what was at the top of this vortex of wind. I eventually came to a giant hand palm down above this vortex and I saw a lady’s face and a second hand came up below me to sit on. The face looked like a huge marble statue and I asked who are you? She replied Jennifer so I asked what are you doing here? And she replied I'm waiting. I said what are you waiting for and she said she was waiting for the Earth to evolve and went on to explain that the Earth only existed in the minds of those who inhabited it and it was up to each one of them to raise the quality of their consciousness and become love then the Earth would evolve to a place of peace and harmony...

I then did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...