We had everything setup as usual.
I did the opening prayer at 8.40pm, turned out the light and
put the music on.
We did the Rainbow Bridge visualisation exercise…
Liz started out in a meadow with dandelion clocks, buttercups
and cherry blossom petals falling. It had a serpentine path going through it,
going on and on in a snake like zig-zag towards the sea. Liz wanted to get to
the sea so started slithering along the path like a snake but then thought she
really needed a bridge and found she’d created an enormous aqueduct and she
flew up over it getting a wonderful panoramic view. Then Liz thought the whole
purpose of this exercise was to reach out to the spiritual side and she then
found herself reaching out to Jesus and being drawn towards this figure who
took her hand and led her to the Garden of Gethsemane. Liz felt this was a sad
place to be and was then aware of the tree where Judas had hung himself and
Jesus explained that the doubt to have faith in the spiritual reality, the
divine nature of the human, led to the state of Judas betraying that inner
knowledge in favour of worldly power. He explained the need to become like a
little child again. The more you have, the more you acquire in this world, the
harder it is to allow yourself to totally be immersed and to be led by spirit.
He said when a child is born it completely allows itself to be led by the
mother and when a child is born to be a royal like Prince Charles, or a pauper,
a farmer’s son, for a baby it’s all the same, it gives itself up to the mother
and the family, allows it to guide and provide everything that’s needed and
even as we grow up we’re given everything that we need to fulfil whatever it is
we’re meant to be doing if we allow that process we can allow ourselves to be
guided by the spirit within but that often gets blocked…
I started off sitting on a porch drinking a cup of tea
looking out at fields, meadows and woodland, feeling very much in harmony with
the world. I then became aware of a sound; it was just one musical note being
played constantly like a hum. I didn’t know where it was coming from so I got
up and walked out onto the fields which then started rippling towards me like
ripples in a lake. It made me feel light-headed and unsteady on my feet. I
decided to make a humming sound myself but using a different note, one not in
tune with what I was hearing to create a discord and as I did so it created
more ripples in the fields moving away from me which interacted with the other
ripples causing weird patterns in the fields making me feel even more unsteady
and then the wind got up and the air was filled with leaves and other debris
flying around. I then became aware of a figure standing with me looking
biblical with long white robes and he explained that the humming sound I hear
was the music of the Earth and we all need to stay in harmony with that one
musical note. He said we can easily cause upset and disharmony in the Earth by
playing the wrong note. Then he produced a flute and played a note that stopped
the wind and the ripples as everything went back to feeling harmonious again…
I put the music back on and we continued the session…
The room started to look flashy to me with lots of movement
going on and then I started to see blobs coming and going.
I had a fleeting image of somebody standing and reading from
a book with children sitting around them.
Both Liz and I drifted off a few times.
Liz began to speak…
‘Kedgeree… I have an
image of a small, slim black person with a large afro hair do’
‘Gordon Square,
Carlisle’
‘I got a sense of
someone hunting a hare, crouching down’
‘Tobermory…’
The music ended and Liz continued…
‘Carpet slippers, I’m
at the mad hatter’s tea party, through the key hole, the queen, the queen with
Prince Charles, Buzby, comments on the coronation, kaleidoscope, Glynde’
‘Something about
French farmers, a lot of jumbled up words, turnip… it’s like I’m looking at a
ploughed field, a lot of chalk… Pauline… a sense of somebody playing a flute…
pernicious anemia… fendagast’
‘Got a sense of a
collaboration going on, a sense of Dad’s Army, Clive Dunn… keep getting
pictures of people on a stamp, Elvis Presley… I’m not sure if this is all
noise’
Me… ‘Can you ask for a
clearer picture?’
‘I got a clear picture
now, a bottom of a wall, seems to be like a castle, with blue bells, a bit like
Herstmonceux Castle, seeing lots of people and a carriage’
Me… ‘Is it a horse and
carriage?’
‘Yes’
Me… ‘When I got
married I had a horse and carriage to Herstmonceux Castle’
‘I’ve got Roger,
Ronald… I’ve got William Waldegrave again, a lady in a dress, conquest’
‘Suddenly just got
this sense of curtains, silk curtains... I’ve got the British flag, a feeling
of being in a photo booth and there’s a crowd outside, a lot going on, a lot of
activity’
‘It’s like looking on
the news reel of the assassination of Kennedy, that motorcade in sepia colour,
that’s juxtaposed with the coronation on television’
‘The Sistine Chapel’
‘I’m just asking if
there’s a common thread, I seem to be all over the place… David… question,
question… perhaps you need to ask a question’
Me… ‘Okay… a long time
ago I heard someone say if you don’t like someone it’s because you see in them
something you don’t like about yourself. Would you say that was true and could
you elaborate on that?’
‘Projections resonate,
project onto others and resonate with those qualities in us that maybe jar, yes
that’s very often true’
Me… ‘So if we love
ourselves would we not then find any faults in others?’
‘In the state of love
aligned with the universal state of lovingness yes everything becomes a
reflection, reflected in that totally non-judgemental benign acceptance, what
is known as the unconditional positive regard’
Me… ‘What can we do to
reach this state where we totally love ourselves?’
‘To become as little
children and then to allow, to open up to the universe. There are many paths,
many helpful ways to facilitate that allowing, letting go, to cultivate that
state of openness, but there’s a lot of baggage, a lot of resistance sometimes,
so mindful awareness of one’s own conscious state is important. To know one’s
own state of consciousness, to befriend whatever is in that consciousness and
to gently observe and inquire as a friend into one’s own consciousness. That’s
a beginning just to be aware. Serving oneself like a kind teacher, like a kind
mother gently noting without judgement, a sense of gentle enquiry, gentle
interest, curiosity and to be able to read between the lines what is real and
what is false, what is projection, what is misapprehension, what is helpful,
what is not helpful, what leads to happiness and wellbeing and what creates
conflicts and dismay is to observe and to note with interest and to learn, to
survey the sense of self with certain circumspectness allowing but not
necessarily believing everything, identifying with everything, just watching
and at some point a sense of compassion for the self, a sense of realisation
can arise’
Me… ‘Do we bring
baggage in with us when we incarnate into this physical world or is it
something we pick up along the way?’
‘The root being, the
innate human spirit is pristine, has no baggage as such but that baggage is
acquired, put on like a coat, picked up, maybe even desired, habits of
lifetimes. The naked spirit can choose to clothe itself in different guises but
some of those guises carry quite a lot of dirt if you like, heavy with grime
and difficult to cast off again but the unconditioned, the spirit is always
there but the coat is so heavy and it only sees itself in the coat so the true
nature is forgotten and it’s just the coat that’s seen and that’s why carefully
observing that coat, how it feels, how it moves, can sometimes lead to the
intimation of the hidden spirit beneath it, or enthusing it, a sense that there
is something more. Once that spirit is sensed it can be liberated, it can be
co-opted to help to lift off the heavy coat. The coat won’t lift itself off but
the abiding spirit when it is recognised and co-opted, solicited, that can help
to cast off the coat’
Me… ‘What causes us to
clothe ourselves in this coat?’
‘Camouflage, a desire
to fit in with a common paradigm, a desire to belong and a misuse of the human
mind and intelligence and it’s that erroneous and malfunctioning mind that has
to become aware of its malfunctioning and then it’s that mind that can co-opt
the spirit that can ask then for the help to take off the coat, to cast off the
habit. So that’s why the skill of mindfulness being watching one’s own mind,
observing, becoming aware of its working and of its operation can help to catch
it in the act because it’s the mind that creates this coat so by being aware of
the mind’s modus operandi can catch the coat weaver in the act and stop the
spinning of the false yarn and allow the self to become naked again like a
baby’
Me… ‘I suppose once
the self has become naked again it would perceive things differently, like
other people and physical objects around itself’
‘Yes the small child
looks at those around often with that unconditional love but as it grows later
that unconditional love then becomes disrupted with expectations and flashes of
anger and all the paraphernalia of emotions that it justifies and the love can
get lost on the way, the child becomes later angry with parents, angry,
resentful, frustrated as well as the more positive emotions but a lot of habits
are required that mitigate against that unconditional loving positive regard
and some of those emotions or clothings that are acquired by the child are
reflections or resonances from the parents, from those around them and learns
these modes and ways of seeing and viewing and judging and falls away from the
original state of acceptance and allowing and the unconditional positive
regard… I keep coming back to events of the queen and the crown and a sense of
royal family but that’s covered over with the sense that everyone is a royal,
is a sovereign and that everyone wears a crown, has that potential to be
sovereign, that we are all equal, equally born, noble. The royal baby is no
different from the baby in the manger. The baby in the manger it was said was a
king, it’s the potential of the Christ, Christ the king, the royal, the
sovereign, the sovereign self, in each and every human, happy and glorious
everyone, majesty everyone, no one more than another’
There was a pause.
‘I have a sense of
someone a bit like a mermaid, Dravidian, but it turned into someone who looks
like Princess Diana. A sort of Mediterranean type rising out of the city of
Constantinople, all the different flags of the nations just being dissolved. I
just get a sense of the great happiness of sea creatures and mermaids living in
that wonderful medium, water, amphibians, and I guess that is a state to be of
the human consciousness to be equally at home in the physical plane and in the
spiritual plane, on land and in the sea of spirit’
Liz started to come back and once she was feeling back with
it I did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise…