We had the room setup as usual.
I did the opening prayer at 8.40pm, turned on the music and
extinguished the light.
We did the Rainbow Bridge visualisation exercise…
Liz started off looking up at a dark starry night. There was
a wonderful aura and rainbow around the moon. Suddenly a hot air balloon and
basket came down with an old woman inside and she invited Liz into the basket.
It reminded Liz of the nursery rhyme… ‘There
was an old lady tossed up in a basket seventeen times as high as the moon…’ The
lady then turned into a man with spectacles and beard and then back into an old
crone again. She tossed Liz over her shoulder as if she was a baby and they
went up in the balloon. At first Liz thought she was an old witch kidnapping
her but then thought no the woman wanted the love from a child and Liz had
become a child, and then she was a cat and she remembered her mother with a
ginger cat and how she cuddled it with absolute love and delight and had the
same feeling for babies. Liz thought about when she was a baby she could
realise the love that her mum felt for her. Children and babies give
unconditional love to their parent and the parent responds to that whether animal
or human babies. Liz then remembered a boss she had who was a very unhappy lady
but loved dolphins. She had a picture of her with dolphins and she was smiling
in a way that she would rarely smile. She also had a passion for spiders and
webs. There were things in her life that were beautiful and would make her
smile and kindle her interest and love. Liz felt this whole thing was an
illustration that in everybody’s life there is something, some way towards that
feeling of unconditional love. Liz then remembered her daughter when walking in
the flower markets in Amsterdam with her and the wonderful colours of the
flowers and the love that she felt for her and from her when she was a baby and
that she’s always given her this love. She realised that that is always there
when babies are born they have this wonderful unconditional love, this openness
and this joy in them and there is something in the parent that responds to it
despite all the other difficulties that might be going on and this is the thing
that endures and is never lost, it gets hidden but it’s the important thing in
life to hold onto. Liz then thought about trees, putting her arms around trees.
There’s something incredibly solid and vital in this endurance and patience of
trees. There are so many beautiful things in the world that you can touch and
hold onto, different forms of unconditional love. Liz was reminded of the words
of Blake’s poem… ‘How do you know but every bird that cuts the airy way, is an
immense world of delight, closed by your senses five?’ and Liz had a feeling she was a lapwing, part
of a crowd of lapwings flying over the marshes and that every bird is like a
whole world of beauty and love and everything is a manifestation of this
unconditional love but to realise that you have to see with the eyes of a
child…
I started off in a forest, it was dark and seemed like there
had been a forest fire. All the trees were bare and black and I could smell
scorched wood but I was aware of a bright light to my right. I walked towards
it and found it was a glowing glass dome poking out from the ground about five
metres across. I touched it and I immediately lit up and the ground beneath my
feet also lit up. I saw other people touching it and they too lit up until the
whole scene became bright and colourful. I looked back at the forest and the
trees were now full of bright green leaves. There was an old man sitting on a
white bench with long white hair and beard dressed in robes. I sat down next to
him and he said… ‘look at the children’ and I saw children playing. They looked
Victorian; they were playing with very old toys like hobby horses and marbles.
The man then said… ‘look at the birds’ and I saw all these birds flying above
the children. They were all blue and the children were watching them as they
landed on their arms and heads. The children then turned blue as well and the
grass went blue and eventually the whole scene was blue. I asked the man where
I was and he said I’m not really anywhere and also everywhere. Wherever I am I
can tune into and see this blue place. It’s a pure colour and the colour of
spirit which exists everywhere and it’s good to try and see it wherever you
are…
I put the music back on and we continued the session…
I soon started to see bright blobs in front of me, they were
pink and blue.
My legs were very cold.
A few minutes later Liz’s legs were very cold.
Liz began to speak…
‘I see a helicopter,
it’s going round and round, the blues and purples, seems like a rainbow bridge…
circus… Caroline… zebra, it’s a zebra crossing, it’s black and white. The
postman… Queenie…’
‘Lion, lioness…
putting your head into its mouth… Rosemary… Beslan and the lion… it’s a book, a
children’s book, Stig of the dump… I’m just being shown these children’s books
and they’re inspired by spirit, Narnia, C S Lewis’
‘Sharper than a
serpent’s tooth’
‘I’ve got Hanna and
serendipity and the theatre, school book, it’s like crosses, squares like a
graph, just squares to be filled in, it’s an uncomfortable feeling, not a happy
experience, trying to keep things in boxes, letters are jumping all over the
place, Ls and Ps… got the sense that school is a misery’
The music ended.
Liz carried on…
‘It’s a crest, like a
red cover on the exercise book, like a royal crest, like on an egg, a mark… Crown,
something about sovereignty. That stamp seems to belittle, I don’t think the
stamp should be there, it’s a stamp of patent, ownership, and these are things,
a learning, eggs, they can’t be owned they’re given… the word regicide… I’ve a
feeling somebody thought there’s a lot of smallness, narrowness, narrow
mindedness in the world, a cramped place compared with the ineffable freedom in
the beyond where Hanna is now, only joy’
‘Yes it’s the
blinding, that we’re blinkered and blinded into the reality. We can’t parcel up
the living things, we can’t own it or put our stamp on it, it’s given freely…
That’s it…’
Liz got the names Fred and Rosemary.
Once she was back with it Liz did the healing exercise,
closing prayer and our closing down exercise.
We had both dropped off to sleep a couple of times during
the session…