I did the opening prayer at 8.10pm, turned out the light and put the music on.
We did the Rainbow Bridge visualisation exercise...
Liz found herself looking at a face, a woman's face that changed into someone Liz knew and had worked with, Tamzen. Then Liz found herself by a bridge with daffodils all around her. She'd been there before, it was like an archway through and under the river somehow, like an aqueduct and Liz wanted to go through it. She started crawling along on her belly then thought she could just slide through it like a flume in a swimming pool and went zooming along it on her belly then came shooting out the other end into the night sky. It felt like she was swimming through the stars and there were angels with long robes there dancing in the sky and Liz saw Tamzen with them. They were flowing and Liz was flowing with them. As Liz swam through the sky she was aware of not having any form, she could be anything she wanted and suddenly it was as if she was an enormous table spread out in all directions and then she was a lamp. She could take on any form and wanted to be a candle flame and contemplate the candle flame. She recognised the Tibetan exercise of becoming the flame, becoming the light, everything is you and you are everything. As the music came to an end Liz found she was still trying to stabilize with this light, this candle flame and over it was an ornate gold death mask while behind it Liz was all of light and everything and nothing at the same time...
I started off on the top of a snow covered mountain in a toboggan. I felt I was about to go down a slide but felt a bit nervous about doing it as the slide looked very steep, almost a sheer drop. I then went for it and was soon shooting down the side of the mountain building up speed then turning right and spiralling round the mountain like being on a giant helta-skelta. I noticed there were other slides running parallel with mine and other people were whizzing round like me, some faster, some slower. There was a TV screen in front of me and it looked like a lifetime was being played in fast motion. It felt like this journey down the mountain was representing a physical lifetime and we were all on our own pathways. As I got nearer to the bottom of the mountain I saw that some of the toboggans had stopped and now looked lifeless. I carried on going but was slowing down and the film on the TV was slowing down too as if I was getting older and slower and then it stopped. Everything went dark for a while and then I felt I was becoming one with the mountain. I was the mountain and the mountain was me. I saw other mountains spreading out into the distance in all directions and I sensed they were all full of life. As the music ended I found myself back on top of the mountain in a toboggan about the start out on a new physical life...
Once again we noted several similarities in our visualisations.
I put the music back on and we continued the session...
I soon started seeing blobs coming and going.
Liz started to speak...
'I have the word cuckoo... Gloria... conjoined shadows, I'm looking at pussy willow, catkins, male catkins. I can see how the tree has the male and female catkins, they're conjoined... surreptitious'
'I've an image of somebody in a postman's hat. It's a letter to or from Nancy. Narcisi, narcissus... take a step back'
'The name Joy or Joyann, twins conjoined, comfortable, unconditionally, confusion, identity confusion, some suggestions, take two...'
'I've got the image of a wall, wallflower... trying to get crystal clear, I have... it's like Crystal Palace, catchment area, calligraphic. I've got the feeling on Uncle Lionel being there, Talmudic scholars'
'What can I say, say it as it is, this session is ended, somewhere. I have the sense of big shoes treading on snow, footprints, trying to tread like on egg shells on a soft surface, carefully, sensitively'
'I would like to wave a magic wand, I see these stars from this magic wand like a Christmas sparkler, sending out into the dark night, big fizz, sending out little streams of sparks, igniting face, fireflies. I have hands pulling me up, supporting me in my pyjamas, preparing me'
'Mr Murdock...'
'I get the words my brothers in arms, sisters in distress, satisfaction not in this world, saviour, saviour of the world. Now this is the message, the only messiah is me, me is the messiah, the only saviour is me, I am the saviour, the only mission is to save, to save myself, I save myself, I save humanity in me as in you as in all. Brothers in arms, sisters in distress, they're all one family, all one soul united. I need more in good faith, have a good Christmas, God bless... and don't forget the custard powder... he's saying that to me'
Me... 'Does that mean anything?'
'Yes, ha, ha... it means don't forget the custard powder... thank you Lionel'
'I thought it was uncle Lionel but I think it's Lionel Blue the rabbi'
'I have the name Rupert, I feel very hot...'
'Mrs Matterson, the connection of Woldingham, think of Joe Moss and a lot of emotion, my friend's mother and Natasha. I asked for some evidence and I got the name Mrs Matterson, someone dropped something, dropped some pennies, pennies from heaven'
'Old age should fight against the dying light... Dylan Thomas'
'I get the sense of this lamp shade. Where there are fears there are phantoms, that's where you fight, it's the fears that fight and there's the need for the guiding hand, kind thoughts, kind words, kind deeds, go gently into that good night, resolution'
'I keep getting the word califragilisticexpialidocious'
Me... 'It normally starts with super'
'Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious... this is getting silly... do you want to ask anything?'
Me... 'Yes, is the way we sit for this group the best way at the moment or is there any modifications that can be made?'
'Having more interaction between the two of us could be beneficial'
Me... 'Okay, I find sometimes if I say too much it might interfere with what's coming through you'
'Yes, when there's pauses, allowing for pauses so there isn't the sense of the need to fill in and allowing for plenty of time for the relaxation, a deeper relaxation and the lowering of the music so there's no distraction when words are coming through, that's important, and the awareness that this is a learning, a development not an end product and to allow for the need to back track, to restore clarity, the original condition, to allow for rebooting when it gets caught up. Contact can be lost quite quickly but it can be regained by allowing time and the medium has to in a sense feel free to stop and recharge when the contact is lost, like a transmission line fading out, waiting for the crackling and the noise, the re-tuning can take a little while, that's patience. If you feel you have to rush, a set time, that can thwart the exercise, opportunity to practice and develop, and practice means making mistakes and stopping and going back to square one again, trying it again and again... So that's the honest way to allow a time to get a better signal, better connection'
'Got the name Doreen and another name Willoughby. It's like I was watching an old fashioned film, top hats, smart coats, a tailors called Willoughby, a connection with my uncle joe'
Liz asked me to play a tune while she came back with it.
Liz thought the name Nancy that came through at the beginning could be her neighbour who died a few years ago.
I then did the healing exercise, closing prayer and our closing down exercise...